>Yesterday was a strange day and today is a bit weird too. Mostly because I don’t feel well – not sick but in pain and off.
I felt better yesterday after getting to rant at two different people and I managed to avoid the emotional eating that had nearly occured. So overall yesterday was a pretty positive day even if it didn’t feel like it. Twice I wanted to “throw my toys out of the pram” at someone and didn’t. I’m pleased about that because it is something I’m trying to work on. But equally I think things probably won’t change there until I do say/do something and so I must find a way of doing so calmly and quietly – gently, even. Also, I can’t deny that part of me wishes I had thrown the fit I wanted to because it would be resolved. And having it resolved would be a good thing. Throwing a strop however, probably would not have resolved it without long term repurcussions and that would suck.
I did buy coke and chocolate today when I went to sainsburys – yesterday was day six without – and so far I haven’t touched it and part of me wonders why exactly I bought it. Yes, I feel kinda lousy but it won’t make me feel better.
The creative writing course starts tongiht, I need to find the thing out and check what time it starts. I’m really looking forward to it but I think first I must take a nap.