• 100 days of writing,  sailing,  Uncategorized,  you know you've got CP

    >You Know You’ve Got CP When…

    >Someone shows you a new disabled changing room and you get really excited and describe it as amazing.The start of sailing supper was last night. Sailing itself starts on 10th April. And yesterday was a chance to socialise, catch up and just generally be together after the long winter break. It was a lot of fun and it was nice after a horrible week to be with friends I’ve not seen for months.I popped to the loo before we left. And when I came out my Dad was talking to one of the volunteers. He called for me to come and see. I wheeled over to a new bit of…

  • 100 days of writing,  Uncategorized

    >Missing: One Smile

    >I’ve lostMy smile Last seenOn TuesdaySitting inThe sunshineEating a picnicOf sorts. But thenWithout warningA painful blowStruckTrust wasBrokenAndMy smileWent missing It’s not behind The sofaHiding inThe kitchenOr lurking underMy bedI checked. I was definitelyAt homeThe last timeI saw itAnd my parentsDouble checkedMy bins. My smile isGoneWe just can’t Find itUnsurprisingGiven theMood I’m in It’s weird withoutMy smileHorrid thatI can’t even grinI wouldn’t KnowWhere toBegin And as for a smirkI imagine that’sOn the faceOf the smile thiefBecause it isn’tOn mineIt’s just too much Work. There areGlimmersOf hopeSnippetsOf good newsBring a fleetingReturnBut my smile isScaredNeeds moreThan I’ve gotTo returnFor good My smileIs missingIf found,Please returnTo me ♥ Emma All content copyright Emma Crees,…

  • 100 days of writing,  Uncategorized

    >How Dare You #100daysofwriting #disability

    >You ask meHow I dareDo what I do? Be itLive aloneGo outVolunteerSwimKnitSurviveThrive You tellMeYou couldn’tDo it.You wouldn’tDare. So it seemsI’m braveFor goingTo the supermarketThe libraryAnd evenThe post officeBut especiallyFor laughingLivingAnd loving The truth isI Have one choiceDo itOr notAnd ifIDon’tNo one willDo it for me But itTakesFriendshipSupportUnderstandingHelpAnd trust For meTo doWhat I doBe independentSuccessfulOutgoingAndAll I amIt takes a village And so I want to knowHow YOU dareTake advantageOf meDestroyMy trustHurt meMake me Feel crapAndReallyPissed off You’ve alwaysSaid I’m braveIncredibly StrongInspirationalAnd so manyOther things I dare do thingsYou wouldn’tBecause IHave no choice But I’m notBrave enoughTo say thisTo yourFaceHow dare you?How dare you?How dare youDo what you did? I might beStrong(although…

  • 100 days of writing,  Uncategorized

    >This Character #100daysofwriting

    >A character sketch. Shorter than I intended and missing a couple of bits I’d thought of writing. But as often happens my writing took on a life of its own and went where it wanted to. I consider this a very good thing! This character is a strong one. They’ve got a lot to say and usually they aren’t afraid to say so. At the same time there’s a lot of things they’d like to say but keep quiet. Hiding those thoughts and feelings deep inside for fear of people not understanding what they mean, of potential ridicule and worst of all of pity. Not many people know this character…

  • 100 days of writing,  Uncategorized

    >Kick in the teeth

    >Not my usual positive self today. Lots going on, plenty of positive and fun things but also several kicks in the teeth lately. A very bad fall at the weekend (literally the second worst I’ve ever had) means I have a really badly bruised and sore arm, knees and other bits. I’ve no idea how I didn’t break something. Access issues that were totally unexpected but could have been avoided with thought on others part forced cancelled plans. And a few small niggles. ApparentlyThere’s a signOn my backThat saysCome to meKick meI’m the targetFor allDisability relatedCrap Or so it seemsI’d be on my kneesBut I can’t do thatPhysicallyI am in…

  • 100 days of writing,  2012,  dose of happy,  Uncategorized

    >An unusual sight #dohmonday #withtheband #100daysofwriting

    >Today was better than I expected and I had the opportunity to take time out in the middle of my busy day. I read in the sunshine for just under an hour and finished reading my book then took a shower before continuing my day. Time to just be, it was perfect. That’s what I wanted from my disconnected day at the weekend but it didn’t happen. Disconnecting did but life kicked me in the teeth so there was angst and little chilling Plus, I had my last counselling session. They were both doses of happy for me today. And now, a poem Dark skyBright lightsCars stream pastKeep going fastLife…

  • 100 days of writing,  Uncategorized

    >Over It

    >I’ve had shed loads of crap happen this weekend. Pretty much all disability related too. And although I have managed to resurrect some of the weekend my plans for Friday night and yesterday were completely derailed in separate incidents. Add in a major case of can’t be arsed about something I have to do tomorrow and it’s fair to say my mood isn’t great. Over It Over it.I’m over itDefinitelyI’m not beside itBehind itUnderneath itOn top of itIn front of itOn its leftOr on its right.I’m justOver it.Had enoughDone with itCan’t be botheredTomorrow isn’tEven here yetBut it canHappen without meI’m overEverything that’s plannedIf you’re supposedTo see meTomorrowYou’ll have to PretendBecause…

  • books and reading,  Uncategorized

    >Things That I’ve Been Reading #fridayreads #amreading

    >I hardly read anything in February so didn’t write one of these. Here’s what I’ve been reading (other than book review books) since January. The Pearl by John Steinbeck This is a very quick book I picked up in the Library. Beautifully written as all Steinbeck’s books are it really makes you think about greed, about life in earlier times and what matters. I read it in one sitting ( it’s about 90 pages) and really enjoyed it. One from the 1001 books list. Other than the one book I reviewed, a few pages of The Swimming Pool Library (couldn’t get into it) and a bunch of short stories that’s…

  • 100 days of writing,  2012,  access,  disability,  Poetry,  Uncategorized

    >Snotty Letter #disability #100daysofwriting

    >It’s timeFor aSnotty Letter It’s timeTo showWhy I’veGot my Rep People sayI’ve aBAD ATTITUDE Or thatThey neverMet aMore ungratefulLittle Madam The fact Is I’ve Got rights Unthinking changesAllegedly toHelp staffRuined myDay out So it’sSnotty LetterTime again The staffWere greatThey hateThe changeAs well I had To laughAt that I saidThis thingIs shitThey saidWe know!!! Impossible problemsNo solutionNo excuses I’ll bePolite yetVery firmInsisted onAdvertised access Bite my Tongue andThink first It wasVery disappointingNeeded betterPlanning andUser consultation Snotty annoyedAnd notSnotty screaming What theFuck wereYou thinking?Fucking ridiculousAnd unnecessary My friendsHelped rescueMy dayPark picnicsCafe drinks But thatWon’t make Snotty Letter If askingFor myRights meansPeople don’tLike me That’s fineI’ve neverBeen afraid Secretly I Hate itIf IWeren’t…

  • 100 days of writing,  Uncategorized

    >The National Day of Unplugging #unplug #100daysofwriting

    >I’ve just discovered that The National Day of Unplugging is from sundown tonight to sundown tomorrow. I always used to take periodic time away from my computer and the net. a day or two. For a whole year I did it at least once a month. But I haven’t gone an entire day since I got my iPad in July last year. Maybe even longer. And by coincidence I’d been thinking that I really need a day off from it all. I’d thought that I’d take tomorrow, but I said the same thing about last Saturday and a day a few weeks ago and never managed it either day. So…