It’s generally been a terrrible week but there have been a few good moments and I’ve had a great day today despite a few moments of anxiety (new people, train faffing)
I’ve had three days of antibiotics (nitrofurantoin 100mg x 2 daily) for a UTI. And I ended up feeling physically appalling. Sick, dizzy and yucky on top of the usual UTI symptoms. Finished those yesterday and feel better today which sort of proves the theory that I’ve had for a while that nitrofurantoin makes me nauseaous. As UTIs can make me feel sick it’s been hard to tell. I’m not 100% right yet.
I had a whole night of insomnia. Which may or may not have had to do with the fact that i felt too crappy mid afternoon that day to stay up and slept deeply for two hours. It is unusual for a nap to keep me up all night though.
Depression has been kicking my ass and I think I probably hit the point where I was as bad as I was in the days before I was first diagnosed. I’ve been to the doctors and am back on sertraline – 50mg a day though rather than the 100mg I was on until last year. Well, at the moment I’m taking half a tablet a day for a few days/week to wean on to it slowly. I actually ended up having to tell CAB a day in advance that I couldn’t come in so I could go to that appt (when I rung and got an appt with the GP I wanted to see the day before I wasn’t going to say no) but it’s a good job I did because I was so yucky with the UTI I’d have not been able to go in anyway.
But as I said there have been a few good things.
I was well enough to go to a show on Friday night – Stephen K Amos. Well, I still felt crap but I felt OK enough to go especially given I was only 10 mins from home so if I’d started feeling rubbish I could have got back easily. He was good. A funny guy and a good performer but not one of my favourites. I probably wouldn’t go and see him live again but I’m really glad we went as it was a good evening.
Today I went to Oxford and sort of met up with the NaNo group. A new ish member and I had been chatting online and had agreed to meet up. And then a meet up was set up by someone else for the group. So I went in and found her easily and we chatted loads and enjoyed it. I did eventually figure out that the rest of the group (two I’d met once or twice and two I didn’t know) were over the other side of the Jam Factory but we were having quite a specific conversation which we were enjoying and they were writing so we stayed there. I had a bit of time after she left and debated going over to say hi but decided against it as I didn’t have long. I got my book out and read a couple of pages then one of them came over and said “Emma?” and I joined them for 10 mins before coming home. I enjoyed it.
So things may be looking a little brighter. But there’s still a long way to go.