Jinxed it!

I wanted to write a post about how proud of myself I am about something. I’ve been telling everyone about an achievement since last weekend.

Unfortunately telling them seems to have jinxed it!

My care package has been in place for a year now and not once have them come and found me still in bed or in the shower. I’ve always had a set of wraps ready to wear and I’ve never been having a “crap I have no clean clothes” or other major crisis. I have been only part dressed or just in a towel a few times but that’s usually down to their changing the time and not telling me.

They’ve never come so drastically late that I’ve had to abandon waiting for them or decline my care to get to things I had to do (It came very close once when I had a doctors appt an hour and a half after they should have left) They have interrupted my dinner in the evenings a few times though!

I’m really proud of myself that I’ve managed a year of this. Of getting up early than I’d like (or naturally wake) and of dealing with the tie having carers represents.

Then on Monday night I was telling that carer. “It’s been a year and I’ve never been in the shower! I’ve never had to miss out because they’ve messed up!”

Tuesday the app the carers use glitched and they ended up over an hour late to me. My lift to physio was outside as we were wrapping up.

Yesterday as that carer left she said “I’ll see you tomorrow morning, I’m coming at 9”. And the rota I received at the end of the last week said the same thing.

This morning I took advantage of that and had a 30 minute lie in. Which meant when one of my other carers knocked on my door at 8:30, I’d been out of the shower less than 5 minutes. I was wrapped in a towel with a bundle of clothes I was about to put on in my arms. As I tried to juggle those and my keys to let her in I dropped my knickers. Luckily she wasn’t phased by either my lack of clothing or my “good morning, could you pick my knickers up please?”

I am still really pleased by what I’ve achieved but I’m going to stop talking about it before they come on Sunday and find me asleep.

Blog Tour: I’ll Find You by Liz Lawler

Today I’m taking part in the blog tour for I’ll Find You by Liz Lawler.  I received a free copy of I’ll Find You to review.

I’ll find you is a psychological thriller. It was released in ebook earlier this week and will be out in paperback in May. Here is the blurb:

Emily Jacobs, a nurse, is in hospital for a minor operation. When she wakes in the night, woozy with anaesthetic, she sees the doctor frantically trying to resuscitate the woman in the bed next to her. In the morning, she is told that she must have had a nightmare. The bed has been empty all along . . .

When Emily returns to work she discovers a bracelet that she believes belonged to the missing woman. Soon, she becomes convinced that her colleagues at the hospital are hiding a terrible secret. 
What if she’s wrong? What if her own troubled past has affected her more than she knows?

But what if she’s right? 

What else could they be capable of?

I’ll Find You is a book I nearly gave up on it before I really got started with it. There’s one scene in the first chapter that really, really freaked me out and made me not want to read it. But I decided to read chapter two as well before deciding that and it made me want to keep reading. That scene was actually the worst one in the whole book for me, the rest was suspenseful and kept me guessing but not freaked out.  I would say if you want a book that is truly terrifying all the way through this isn’t for you, but if you want one that keeps you on the edge of your seat with an undercurrent of fear it could be.

Emily was a really interesting main character whose story highlights both how easily other’s can manipulate opinions and that we can be completely alone while surrounded by people.  I wished we saw more of her relationships with other people, particularly the police inspector, Geraldine Sutton. I also thought Emily’s backstory would have made a good novel that I’d be keen to read.

The hospital setting is an interesting one. I thought some of what happened was unrealistic (but I don’t have the medical knowledge, particularly of private hospitals, to know for sure). But using somewhere we are often at our most vulnerable but are told we are safe as a setting for a psychological thriller was a brilliant idea.

I liked I’ll Find You and think it could make the perfect introduction to the psychological thriller genre.

To read more of the posts from the blog tour for I’ll Find You by Liz Lawler see below:


List of dates, blog names and twitter handles for the blog tour.

At the moment (25th Jan)

Not sure there’s a lot to say about this week!

I went to a writing workshop on getting new ideas. We did several exercises. One of which I like (it seems like I came up with a cohesive piece), another has potential but was too rushed in the workshop. Other things were good to do but probably best abandoned.

I’m reading and knitting. I tried to start some crochet but went hideously wrong somewhere.

The powerchair tech picked up my Jive first thing this morning and as he left this morning he mentioned this would be the first time they’d fitted the redesigned part to a Jive (it’s made for a new model -Q700- but intended to retrofit to a Jive). And I thought about how I’ve been the guinea pig for disability stuff my whole life and it often doesn’t go well. One of other techs dropped it back this evening. And they hadn’t been sent everything they need to put it on a Jive. So my failure guinea pig rep holds.

I haven’t been anywhere of note this week, just my usual day to day stuff. But Mum did pop in briefly on Tuesday and brought Henry with her. We shared a flapjack because I think treats at Auntie Emma’s house needs to be a thing.

At the moment (18th January 2019)

So, this was the week that was…

This week I finished listening to an audiobook that I started listening to on New Years Day.  East of the Sun by Julia Gregson was a very interesting book. I was hooked to start with and really wanted to know what happened. By the end I was fed up with it and ready to be done (but still wanting to know). It felt like it could have been seriously trimmed down.  I have been wondering however if part of the issue is that I had it in audio. The narrator was a good one but I definitely read much, much faster than I can listen in audio. And I have to admit to being surprised how many pages the print version had versus how long the audio is – I had been anticipating it was about 100 pages longer than Goodreads says it is.

I have been reading other stuff but finishing books is a slow process right now. I have actually started writing a blog about that, I’ll post it in a day or two.

Not counting this blog, I have written around 1000 words this week.

Crafts wise I finished the scarf I was working on last week and started another one. My plan is to finish that and do one more (which will finish off my stash of now discontinued Wilkos super chunky yarn) and send them off.

We have started putting together another edition of Tenants Times. I’m volunteering on this one as editor with someone else backing me up. But this will be the last one I edit as the rules state you can only do three years and then someone else has to take over for at least a year. I’m looking forward to seeing what we come up with this time. And I’m also looking forward to letting someone else take responsibility for the next one, I’ve enjoyed doing this since 2015 but it’s time for fresh blood for TT and a fresh challenge for me.

Somewhat unusually for me there’s been a lot of TV watching lately.  I’ve been watching a lot of Criminal Minds which I continue to love. I’ve also been watching the first season of Skin Wars on Netflix which is a bit of a love hate thing. I love, love, love the art but I hate the way you see so little of it. Those bits are too rushed. The new series of Call the Midwife got off to a great start and I liked the first episode of season 2 of Star Trek Discovery. But I still think that Discovery suffers a bit from being a Star Trek series and would be better as a stand alone series.

I watched a film. I basically never watch a film at home but I watched Birdbox last weekend. It took me three sittings. I liked it but as good as it was it really didn’t live up to the amount of hype I’ve heard about it. The ending was too abrupt for my liking and I had a lot of questions. I am tempted by the book but told it’s a lot darker and just as open to questioning. So perhaps not.

Care has been tricky this week. Lots of changes at the last minute (not all of which I’ve known about) due to staffing issues. And it’s always harder to deal with them coming when I’m tired like I am this week.

Dad and I went to Reading Hexagon to see Sandi Toksvig in her one woman show, National Trevor, last night.  It was good and I was really glad we went. Some very funny bits and a few bits we didn’t enjoy as much. It was definitely one of those “you had to be there” things because it’s hard to describe what happened and have it sound as good as it was.

A good week!

At the moment (11th Jan 19)

A recap on this past week.

I haven’t finished a single book this week but I continue to listen to an excellent audiobook most days, I’m dipping in and out of two ebooks and I did read a couple of chapters of a paperback. Plan for the weekend is to finish a book!

Crocheting the blanket continues – it’s an ever evolving plan. I’ve put it aside to try to finish knitting a scarf I started before Christmas. I have two other scarves made and I want to get them posted off to charity.

Slow progress on the writing but there is progress.

Mum helped me sort my lounge a bit yesterday and my evening carers have been using the odd spare five minutes to keep on top of my kitchen. That and getting back into routine have helped my mood.

I went into Oxford today and met a friend for a catch up.

And I think that’s all for this week.

At The Moment (4th Jan 19)

I follow a couple of blogs who post weekly or monthly updates on what they’re up to – things they’ve done, what they are watching, crafting and reading etc. I also follow a couple of blogs who post daylogs either in daily entries or a few of them every couple of days. I used to do similar back when I was at uni and blogging was still outside the mainstream. But now I hardly do and I kinda miss it.

I thought to start with that I might try and start writing a daylog again but we all know that’s a goal I’m not likely to meet. And to be honest most of my days lately have comprised of hanging around the house for hours on end reading or crocheting or watching Criminal Minds (or some combination of the three) and popping out to the supermarket or the chippy only. I really need to get back into my regular routine again post Christmas, I’m beginning to crawl the walls a little bit.

So I thought a once a week blog was the way forward. I’m currently thinking those will be a Friday thing and will be called “At the moment” but it’s flexible.

At The Moment

I’m a bit stiff because I haven’t done proper physio in weeks – the disability gym session I go to for physio hasn’t run in almost a month and we’re out of my standing frame routine since my Dad retired. I have started doing a little bit of physio while my carers are here again (since Wednesday) – it’s something I can do independently but have no confidence with so I do it while they write their notes.

Crafts wise I’m working on a blanket for Woolly Hugs. I got a blanket kit for my birthday but it requires working in rows rather than in the round. And I’m much more used to working in rounds as I found getting started in chain tricky and knowing where the last stitch of a row is trickier. So this is a practice piece.

I have been writing – I’m working on a project I’ve had in mind for a few months that’s nonfiction. I don’t plan to share this publically (or much about it) at the moment but I’m pleased with what I’ve written and if all it ends up being is for me I’m happy with that.

In related news, I have signed up for WriYe (Write Year – a year long challenge along the lines of NaNoWriMo) and have set myself a goal that on the face of it is so ridiculous I’m not going to share it here. But at the same time it might not be so impossible as it seems…

I’m reading! In the last year or so I’ve been finding I have the motivation/concentration to read or crochet/knit or write so the fact I’ve been managing to find time and ability for all three this week (even if not all three everyday).

I went into Reading yesterday. Came back with just the two things on my list and nothing that was on my maybe list. It did me a lot of good to be out, out for the first time since before Christmas.

Finally, because I’ve previously found it useful to have this sort of thing recorded on my blog, I picked up most of a new set of compression wraps today – smaller ones! I still need one calf wrap as the company sent two left leg wraps instead of a left and right (then tried to claim I could just use a left wrap on my right leg – which is true but not for the fact my swelling is worse on the right side so I need a bigger wrap for it). Hopefully that won’t take anywhere near as long as getting the rest did.