2020,  mental health,  Quarantine 2020

Life in Lockdown

I feel like I need to update and write about what life is like at the moment because I’d probably like to have the record in future years. But I also feel like there isn’t a whole lot to say.

There’s no “what I’m reading” post this week because I’ve been reading the same series since last Friday and I want to post about them all at once. I’m on book 4 now which is currently the last one but I reckon the author will probably write at least one more.

I left the house for the first time in almost two months on Tuesday to go say Happy Birthday to my mum in person. I sat outside her house for a little while (it’s big enough to social distance). It felt OK actually and my powerchair managed it. I had been worried about managing to social distance when my chair means I can’t suddenly move into the road or on to the grass (in some places). And I’d also been worried about how the batteries on my chair would cope without having a proper use other than around the house/garden for so long. But there weren’t any problems. It is a relatively short distance though and I didn’t see anyone, things might change if I went a longer distance or it was busier.

I was really surprised by the colour I saw as I went past the park and also in the plants my parents had. I had been picturing the bare, beginnings of spring that there was back in March when I last went out (I don’t really have any plants in my garden). It shouldn’t have surprised me but I obviously hadn’t been seeing it and it just never occurred to me.

Getting food seems to be working quite well now, it was really stressful initially as I don’t qualify for priority slots and it still worries me but it’s working out.. I’ve had an online slot every week or 10 days at most since the 24th April. But I had quite a long gap before that (about two and a half weeks). I was getting a bit worried as the last slot I had was this coming Sunday and I couldn’t get anything else. It was looking from Tesco that it would be well into June and I was staying up until midnight to book and not being successful. However I then got an FB message from my mum on Weds saying there were slots (immediately followed by a text from Dad saying “Mum says….”) and I was successful.

I feel like I should be doing more with my time however at the same time I’m very content with what I am doing. There’s a lot of content and things to do and I want to do some of them but others times I just want to do my own thing. I’m also coming to the conclusion that I prefer zoom calls with only one other person or maybe two or three, not big group ones.

A friend and I were talking about that and we came to the conclusion that we both feel a bit like that because we live alone and in both our cases at least part of our people have always been a distance away (some of her family live abroad and most of friends don’t live in the same town as me). So we’re used to our own company, keeping in touch from a distance and doing our own thing.

I’ve made two finished craft projects since March (a knitted scarf and a loom knit hat), crocheted part of a blanket and several granny squares. But initially I planned to make a square a day until I had enough for a blanket, and finish the whole blanket.

I’m writing a bit but again not as much as I hoped to. And the same with reading. And using my motomed

I’m happy with everything I am achieving but sometimes I feel like I’m not doing enough. I am trying to remind myself what I have done however.

Wednesday was quite a flat day – the first one for a while. Overall I’m coping very well and surprised to find that’s the case. Personally it seems as though this is going to be the situation for a long time and I do wonder whether it will still be as easy on cold dark December days if it comes to it. But I focus on the next few weeks and the rest of the year will sort itself out when it comes.

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