Sailing was rubbish last night and I wish I hadn’t gone.
But there were definite shades of Titanic to the evening. Because by the end of the evening we had someone doing a “king of the world impression” and a boat with a hole in it. Plus I swear I heard one of the kids who was also on the water singing part of My Heart Will Go On
Today I’m not putting any pressure on myself with this blog – I’m just taking five minutes to check in and then that’s done.
I found this image on facebook but judging by the details on that post Wond3rWoman1 over on instagram gets the h/t for it.
Its a dark (wood effect) background with white all caps text which reads Notice: you are hereby allowed to be happy, to love yourself, to realise your worth, to believe in great things and to be treated with love and respect.
As I said I found this over on facebook a few days ago and I immediately thought it would be perfect for self care sunday. Because that’s what self care is all about – recognising my own worth and treating myself like I would like others to treat me. I’m still working on it and whilst in many ways it’s not easy in others things improved. I think it’ll continue to be a work in progress and never be anything that can be called done though.
I don’t really feel like saying anything else about this today. I don’t really think I need to.
This is one of a new series of blogs I’m trying where I write for five minutes and then post whatever the result is. I use Write or Die and I’ve the five minutes is up I just finish the thought I’m in the middle of and correct the typos. It’s a form of free writing and I think I like it but this is only the second time I’ve tried it (I didn’t write this explanation in the five minute)
I feel a bit like I’m in a reading slump right now. I don’t know why but I’ve been struggling to get into books lately, let alone finish them. So I, currently something like five books behind on my goodreads challenge. And actually, I’m doing a pretty good job of not letting that stress me out but at the same time I do wish I could get properly stuck into a book again and feel like it’s holding my attention.
I did just read Model Misfit by Holly Smale and that was ace for keeping me interested. But for a couple of weeks before that (pretty much ever since I finished reading Les Miserables) I’ve felt like nothing grabs my attention reading wise. I am enjoying an audiobook right now (Cry, The Beloved Country by Alan Paton) but usually I have a book on the go at the same time and at the moment I don’t. I love audiobooks but they aren’t the same as actually reading.
I also feel like crafts aren’t holding my attention at the moment although it’s books that bugs me the most. I must admit the question that keeps coming to mind is “am I having a bad spell for depression?” There are a couple of other things that made me wonder that but again it’s the books thing that I really don’t like.
So at the moment I’m trying to listen to a bit of my audiobook everyday. And I’m trying to read a few pages of something before going to sleep. And hopefully soon I’ll find something from the vast piles of books I’ve got that I start reading and don’t want to put down. I’ve just downloaded a new Star Trek book and I’m really hoping that’s the one.
Because it sucks being a reader with no motivation to read.
I thought for this weeks self care Sunday blog I’d combine it with my idea of the five minute blog – getting what thoughts I can down in just five minutes and then leaving it. That’s because I’m not sure I have a lot to say, point one and point two I’d like an early ish for me might (which a lot of people wouldn’t consider early I know) so I’m not short on time but not exactly rolling in it either.
So how have I been taking care of myself this week?
Resting. Mostly getting extra rest.
I’ve been pretty tired all week following my very busy and very fun weekend in London last week (which I still need to blog about). One or two early nights, multiple naps and some lie ins. Even days like today that have or will have seen all of the above! Today is a very definite lazy day and in fact I only got dressed because I’m still in my summer mode of sleeping mostly naked.
I was getting a bit worried earlier about how tired I still am but when I rang mum she asked what I’d been doing today and when I said I’d napped and had a lie in she went “yeah you were busy yesterday and Friday weren’t you?” And I twigged she was right. Kind of busy Thursday too but in a different way. So actually I guess it’s ok, particularly given I may still be somewhat anaemic and my med compliance has been poor this week.
So I decided to try a new thing. A five minute blog. I often don’t blog because I don’t think I have enough to say or enough time to write properly. So I figured I should stop using that as an excuse and write for just five minutes. What gets written gets written, and what doesn’t doesn’t. And it’s not abig deal. Allegedly. How it turns out in reality I couldn’t tell you. But hopefully it will mean I blog more often and that’s one of the goals I wanted to work on this month.
I’m using write or die for ipad to write this, it’s ages since I’ve used it – very possibly a year. Certainly despite the fact I’ve I’ve been writing a lot lately this is the first time I’ve used it this year. Not good, I’d forgotten how useful it could be with the writing prompts and the writing related quotes it has. Equally as much as it makes me write and keep writing my accuracy goes way down and I’m going to need to give this a good edit for typos if nothing else. But then my accuracy in my ipad is generally less when I’m typing than it is on a traditional keyboard and computer set up. And my speed is down too.
I’ve been writing a lot of articles. I’ll have to do another post soon with the various links once they’re all up. I’ve not been wanting to write too much here however because of those other outlets but also because I’ve not really been well and I’ve not really even been reading (due to motivation more than anything) so I’ve no finished books to review just yet. Probably tomorrow. I hope so at least.
So there we have it. Five minutes of writing and another couple to finish the thought I was in the middle of when the timer went and fix all my typos. Not sure there’s much point to this but its an interesting writing exercise. Almost like free writing. And that’s definitely something I should do more of.