>It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas!

>And it’s only 1st October!  And it’s looked a lot like Christmas for about two weeks.  Christmas stuff every where in the shops – completely ridiculous.  It sort of makes me mad in a way and it makes me feel really old but I can’t help thinking that it wasn’t like this when I was young (“back in my day…”).  The end of October is more than early enough to start buying sweets and stuff (or even too early still). if I bought them now I would eat them.

But it’s not just shops – my mother brought the Christmas Cake yesterday.  On the last day of September.

In other news, I didn’t go to work today.  This is the first time this year when I maybe could have gone to work and didn’t.  Which is a good thing but also makes me feel bad that I stayed home.  Of course I knew I would sit there wishing I was home if I went.  So instead I stayed home worrying and thinking I should have gone.

I’m still in my PJ’s (with a jst fleece over the top) and I’ve been sleeping lots.  it’s all been rather lovely and I’m feeling better than I have since Thurs.  Currently trying to convince myself that I do not need to text my carer and get her to bring me chocolate and coke when she comes.  The lower number of the scales will be much nicer on Wednesday than the treats would be now, right?

>Look Great in 2008 Week One!

>I’m up 1lb.

Which is ok.

Trouble is last week I had regained 2lb.

So that’s 3lb that had gone now back here visiting again. And I’m grateful it’s not more because I did eat out twice yesterday and I did binge a couple of times this week. When I weighed earlier in the week it looked like I’d gained more.

If I got a report on my weight loss it would probably say “Emma tries hard but could do better.”

That’s ok. but it’s also sucky considering that I was loser of the week this week.

But all I can do is go onwards and upwards. And take it back to basics.

On with the next week…