(I was going to title this “why I’m not blogging about CP awareness day” and then I realised that by writing this I pretty much was blogging about CP awareness day just not in the way most people are and that would be a pointless title)
So. Word on
the street the internet is that 25th March is CP awareness day. i.e. that tomorrow is CP awareness day.
Except, to me, it’s not, really. It’s national CP awareness day in the US. I’m not in the US and I sometimes feel like the entirety of the fucking internet resolves around people from the US and that those of us not in it get forgotten about (do you know how many book competitions etc I can’t enter because they’re US only?! Too many).
I just deleted everything I’d written after this point. I’d somehow managed to hit 443 words without even beginning to cover the point i wanted to make with this entry. Clearly I suck as a concise writer. Particularly when I can actually sum my point up in one TL;DR sentence. Which is:
I don’t really see that there is any need or point in awareness days in general and particularly for CP.
I don’t know what they do. I find that a lot of people assume I have MS but when I tell them it’s CP pretty much everyone has heard of it. (I did have one rather amusing conversation last year with someone who had CP and CF (cystic fibrosis) confused but…). I’m not sure why I might need more people to know about CP.
It’s not like there’s some Sheldon style mad scientist in a lab somewhere who has never heard of CP and is sitting there going “hmm I’ve found a cure to some random neurological disorder affecting people from birth and mostly causing mobility difficulties and spasticity but I just don’t know what disorder it is. If only someone could make me aware of it’s existence I could change the world for the 1 in 200 babies born every day with it. What a dilemma. If only… if only…”
I don’t need a cure. I’m pretty much perfect just the way I am. I’m the person I’m meant to be right now. Plus, given that I’ve spent 31 years using my body in a way it wasn’t designed to be used I’ve got some unusual wear and tear going on (hip issues for one) that curing my CP could halt or possibly improve but wouldn’t get rid of. Also? CP is brain damage. Ain’t no one touching my brain.
And most importantly I can’t help the part of me that reads or hears things about the desperate need for a cure for CP and thinks “there are plenty of other conditions out there that need curing more. Ones that kill people.” Focus on those.
I class disability awareness and CP awareness as different things. I believe disability awareness is important. It’s through the disability rights movement that the community as a whole can improve access and achieve things. Focusing on little things for one condition or another can’t do as much much as focusing on the majority. Which is why days like the International Day of Disabled People are much more relevant and important to me (the fact that the entry I wrote for it last year remains one of my most powerful in my opinion is nothing to do with that, honest)
I truly believe that the best way I can help myself and others with disabilities – be it those with CP in specific or disability in general – is just to live my life and get on with things. If people see me doing and being I think I achieve more than if I do some specific stunt to raise awareness of CP. Because to me CP isn’t just one day – it’s everyday. And I’m much too busy to do anything more than live my life.