Project 365 – Week 1

One of my goals for this year is to complete Project 365. One photo a day, everyday, for a year. Or at least to give it a really good go. It’s something I started doing at the beginning of last year but gave up on by the 4th or thereabouts because most of my photos were on my phone which went missing and I lost them all. So this year I’m trying it again.

Here are my first week and photos

the view as i wandered home. blue sky, buildings, cars and the power station in the distance.
Day 1
I took this on my way back from the supermarket. I wanted to take something to show how blue the sky was because it felt like it hadn’t been nice like that for ages. And then I realised that on 1st January 2014 I wouldn’t have that sight. The power station is due to cease generating this year and then be knocked down. A lot of people think it blights the landscape and it probably does BUT it was also an integral part of my childhood. In part because my Dad worked there for many years but also because you can see it for many miles. When we would be coming back from holiday we’d watch out for it and want to be the first to call out “I can see the chimney pots.” The saying was always that we weren’t home until we saw them. It might seem strange but I think I will miss seeing it in the distance.

the control and charger for my powerchair.

Day 2

This is the control and charger lead for my powerchair, whilst my chair was charging. The charger wire are showing a little bit. I took this because I wanted to send it to someone but as I’m writing this I’ve just realised I never did send it. Oops.

a large Christmas tree outside in the dark, lit with blue lights

Day 3

The Christmas tree in town, lit up. Mostly because I didn’t expect it to be there still and it is kinda pretty.

dinner

Day 4
Last night’s dinner. Pancetta and roasted veg (mushrooms, potatoes, carrots and peppers) cooked in olive oil and garlic. Very yummy. I use frozen veg and small new potatoes that don’t need prepping. Plus, pancetta that comes ready cubed and garlic granules. Out of the packet, into the oven tray and onto the plate. Easy.

My TV showing the Fraggle Rock ident on the screen.

Day 5
CITV (children’s ITV) turned 30 this week. To celebrate they’re having an Old Skool weekend and showing programmes that span the whole period – mostly old shows that aren’t on any more or older episodes of current shows (I think). I watched a bit. I didn’t make a particular effort and when I looked back at the listings I missed several of my favourites but it was cool to see stuff like Funhouse again. Fraggle Rock was something I really wanted to see so I took this picture of my TV with the Fraggle Rock ident on the screen. I have to say it was a little disappointing (but I was kinda distracted at that point) but I still freaking love the theme tune!

>December Goals

>Take my meds every day (seriously my med compliance has been absolutely atrocious lately. And no suprise, my mood is appalling as a result. Surprisingly my spasticity hasn’t gone as crazy as it used to with not meds).

Continue my one better choice a day plan I’ve been working on.

Finish some damn knitting.  (honestly I don’t think I’ve finished a single knitting project this year :-O)

No more ridiculous chocolate binges (I ate a totally ridiculous amount today and don’t know how I wasn’t sick).

15 mins on the house each day.

Catch up on book reviews

Exercise a couple of times a week.

>Goals for the week

>It’s been a bit of a crap week and I’ve been feeling down at times, missing my meds and feeling a bit ill on and off. I do think there’s been a bit of a virus going around as a couple of other local people have complained of nausea too.

Anyway although I’m slowly pulling it back together now and have an actual proper achievement to show for today – I went back to a very badly stalled project and have got it moving again. I thought it would be good to set a few goals.

1. Take my sertraline daily.
2. Take my baclofen at least once a day (will worry about consistently taking the second dose next week, getting some in is a better goal now)
3. Work on the above mentioned project daily.
4. 1 hour total in the standing frame.
5. Watch The Lord of The Rings
6. Send emails I’ve been procrastinating about

>2011 Begins

>I could probably spend a long time here writing about all I want to do and all I hope to do in 2011.  And there are a lot of things I would like to do or that I really really want to do or I otherwise expect 2011 to bring.  I’ve seen a lot of review of 2010 blog entries and lists of New Years Resolutions.  All very interesting and I enjoyed reading them.  I like doing the review entries and I think before I’ve posted resolutions.  I just don’t think I will this year.

Regardless of whether you call it “Two Thousand and Eleven” or “Twenty Eleven” (personally I’m not overly sold on “Twenty Eleven but I’m sure it’ll grow on me, the year is less than a day old after all) I’m not sure that hopes, dreams and New Years resolutions really matter.

I could sit here and type out everything and anything to do with them.  But it’s not the making of lists or the planning that matters.  What actually matters isn’t having goals or achieving goals.  It’s about trying to do things.  It’s about making progress.  And most of all it’s about living.  I was already thinking about that to a certain extent but then a couple of things I read yesterday and a conversation I had reminded me of it and made me think it even more.

Big change and big moments can happen.  I’d love if they did.  But I don’t need to plan big to make that happen. I just need to take a step and start moving.  Because the thing I want most in 2011?  To know that I tried to make the most of it and to make it mine.

>On the move again at last

>Yes, this week finally sees some progress.  I was feeling very discouraged so that is definitely a good thing!  Basically I cut out pretty much all snacking and it’s definitely worked.

I’m down 2 and three quarter pounds this week.  Which puts me back down to my lowest weight of this journey.  I won’t make the “virgin fat next week” comments I did last time because I think that jinxed me but… here’s hoping!  I’m 17 stone 4 3/4 pounds now (242.75lb) and I really hope to end September with the number that starts with 16 stone something.

I was thinking about a rest of the year goal yesterday.  I did consider 15 stone 13.5lb as my goal as that would be three stone lost.  But I can’t help feeling that’s totally unrealistic.  Whatever happens I’ll be happy because I really have come a long way.  However I would like to have made a pretty decent dent in the 16st part of things and be on my way to 15st by 2011.

I’ve bought a couple of new Wii games in the past week and at least one of them will be great for exercise.  I had a go at it this morning and loved it.  A second one may also do good for exercise but I’ve not tried it yet as it needs the nunchuk and I can’t find it!!

>Compliments

>I’ve been meaning to post this since it happened because I don’t want to forget about it.  Especially today as I am a bit fed up about stupid things that shouldn’t bother me.  So here goes:

On Thursday one of the newer creative writers (there are several of us who have done the course more than once; he is one of the ones who was new this time round) and I were chatting.  We went out for a meal after the class as it was the last one of the course.

And he described me as a semi-professional writer what with all my reviewing and all that.

How very. very cool!  And definitely makes me realise that I am closer than I was to my goal.

Writing this out has made me feel a bit better now. Hopefully having it here will mean I can use it to remind me in the future if I need it.

>101 in 1001 – Item 31…

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Take meds everyday for six months

…has been completed!

Not much to say about this one, it’s pretty self explanatory.

On my previous 101 in 1001 list I did take meds every day for six weeks.  I started that one on 1st January 2007 and actually carried it on and didn’t miss a single dose of medication in 2007.  I didn’t do such a great job of keeping it up beyond the one year mark however and I wanted to set this goal to get me back into such a good habit of meds taking again.  Obviously I’m not going to stop taking them now I’ve hit that goal.  I hope to keep it up and hit the one year mark again.

As this is a short entry here’s some 101 in 1001 stats.

Of the 101 goals

  • Approx 28 have been completed
  • I have failed with three goals
  • 4 or so are in progress right now (I think that number might actually be higher but I have 3 – 4 ones I’m definitely working on now)
  • There are three goals on the list which are “end of the 1001 days” goals
Not bad considering there’s more than a year left to go!

>One Stone Goal – Done!

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Down another 2 and a half pounds today.  Total weight loss is now 1 stone and half a pound!  I’m so pleased.  I’m now 17st 12 & 7/8lb.  I did see 19st 1 at one point at the beginning of the year but my official starting weight was 18st 13&1/2 lb – I didn’t have my scales for several weeks in between the two.  My mum commented today that I am so far from 20 stone now.  Apparently at the beginning of the year she was really worried that if I kept going the way I was I’d be ending this year weighing over 20st.

And because I am feeling mathematically inclined today.  My BMI has dropped 2.6 numbers which if I’ve worked it out right means when I lose a little more than another stone I’ll be saying goodbye the the morbidly obese category and just be “obese” which will be huge progress even if it doesn’t sound like it..  And I’ve lost a little over 5% of my starting weight.

I don’t have a set weight goal at the moment as such but I do have an idea of what I’d like to be between (between 11 and a half stone and 12 and a half stone) although according to the charts that would probably still have me as overweight.  Obviously however those charts are unrealistic when in actual use and as a full time wheelchair user I could potentially seriously increase my pressure sore risk (already high is) if I was much skinnier than that.  Bony bits need padding when you sit on them all the time!  But that works out as somewhere between another 75lb and 89lb left to lose.

I did briefly blog about this on the day it happened – but in January I was wearing a size 26 from Evans.  I fitted into a 22 from there last week.

I have a lot to be pleased about it seems.

>A Bordering on TMI Update Type Post

>Being that it’s over a week since I wrote a “proper” catch up type blog entry I thought I better see what I could do about that right now.  This entry contains items which fall under the category of TMI – you have been warned!

The goals I wrote about a few weeks ago are… OK but kinda stalled.  My TV license is renewed, I’ve e-mailed or called or spoken to on facebook chat most of my friends I wanted to catch up with but not all.  I have looked briefly into changing my ISP but need to do more for that really.  I haven’t even started my shawl I want to knit.  And the no coke and no chocolate thing went really well. /sarcasm. I gave it up Sunday afternoon and was back on it Tuesday lunch time.  Yeah.  Need to work on that one a bit harder!  Although I am pleased that the Monday was a terrible day and I was really upset about something that happened and I felt ill from the lack of my treats but I still stayed strong.  Working on my emotional therefore I eat link is probably more important.

I went to the doctors last Tuesday to get my prescription renewed.  It was actually only my fluoxetine that needed doing but she’s done both.  My baclofen dose is now written differently so I get more each time I get a script and I can take it up to four times a day instead of the twice I was taking it.  I need to read up on that a little because I’ve got a feeling it works on building up to get the full effect so taking an extra here and there on bad days may not be the best way to do things.  Anyway I’ve been taking three a day since then.

There was some discussion when I last went that I might have polycystic ovaries.  Which is a wonderful condition which little is known about I believe.  I am assuming she means PCOS but since then I’ve done some reading which suggests it’s possible to have the syndrome without the cysts or the cysts without the syndrome.  Basically I’ve been skipping periods and then having really long heavy ones and then getting another period really soon (too soon) after the last one and lather, rinse, repeat, basically.

For example I had a period mid October.  Didn’t get one again until 1st Jan which lasted until the 14th and then got it again on the 31st. That lasted my usual five days only which I was relieved about.  I must admit that I was beginning to get concerned that I could end up anaemic.  And yes, I do know that this is TMI for a lot of people but 1) I believe in sharing because it could help others (or me) and 2) I find it useful to have this noted down for my records.

Anyway she said the hormone levels I had done in August weren’t particularly worrying (she used a different phrasing but that’s what she meant) – I was concerned about their validity as I got a period two days after they were drawn but she didn’t seem concerned about that.  There was some discussion about ways that we could treat it (i.e. regulate my hormones) which would be difficult as I can’t take the pill – if you took a list of possible side effects and contraindications of the pill you could cross out contraindications and retitle it “reasons Emma can’t take the pill” I have that many of the contraindications.

The suggestion was Noreisterone for so many days between certain days in my cycle each month to make me bleed.  But in my situation she prefers a wait and see approach and to see if my losing any weight makes a difference in the situation as she thinks my weight is probably what’s caused the polycystic ovaries.  That makes sense to me as it treats the probable underlying cause as opposed to just the symptoms (screwy periods mostly).

So I’m to see the nurse again on Tuesday to chat about my weight progress (I set that up before I saw the dr) and then I’m going to be getting on with this with a vengeance again.  My Dr did comment that I look a lot better than the last time she saw me and also that I look slimmer too. She also commented that I’m sitting better in my wheelchair which is interesting. Plus on the same day my sister commented that my tummy looked smaller.  Progress!

I’ve played on my Wii everyday apart from one since I got it – I use it for exercise and I really think that’s got a lot to do with my current success.  I do wish that I had my scales back already though – so frustrated that they broke and I’ve not heard from them (returned for repair or replacement due to the warranty).  But it’s not been long enough really to chase it yet.

The games I have are Wii Sports, Wii Sports Resort, Just Dance and Samba de Amigo.  I play the Sports Resort and Just Dance the most really and Samba de Amigo is probably the one I play the least.  That’s hard. It kills my arms.  Fun though.

I’m going to be doing some accessibility and/or disability awareness type work with my housing association it seems.  In fact I met with my housing officer on Friday and we spent half an hour walking around the estate I live on so I could show her areas where access isn’t great.  I think the fact I nearly came out of my chair going down a slope at one point (a part I don’t go to usually) really highlighted the fact that a better ramp is needed there!  Plus she asked about things I hadn’t considered too.  There are two more things I’ve been asked if I’ll do (but not arranged) and a few more possibilities so that’s good.  I won’t go into how that came about because it’s not all resolved but I’ll just say that it seems like good things come to those who complain!

I think that’s probably about it for now

>A Few Goals

>A couple of years ago my parents went to New Zealand for five or so weeks at this time of year.  During the time they were away I set myself various goals.  Some of which I achieved and some I didn’t.  I had extra care visits during that time and some of it was to get the carers to do various jobs (which was partially where the failures came from) and some were “oh I must do X sometime” small jobs.  Like the photos I got enlarged and have by my bed – I’d meant to do that for ages until I did it. I was a bit disappointed but when I went through with my mum she said I’d actually achieved a lot.

Early yesterday my parents went off on a trip round South America for three and a half weeks.  I was thinking a few goals to do during this time might be a good idea.

I did myself a to do list in the tasks panel on gmail but that’s things like “wash my blankets” and “empty bins” “put some earrings back in”  and “make a nurse appt” but I thought I would list here the bigger goals.

  • No coke or chocolate between now and when they come back (this is the big one, I think it’s likely to be a huge part of my losing any weight this year and three weeks without the two is also one of my 101 in 1001 goals) FAILED
  • Research changing ISP
  • Sort out WiFi in the house so I can use my netbook online here and go online on the Wii
  • Renew TV license
  • Ring or e-mail all the friends I’ve been meaning to for a while (have sent two of them e-mails already but I think I have at least four more people who fall into that category)
  • Knit my shawl that I keep starting and frogging.