• 2019,  cold,  mental health,  personal,  perspective,  snow

    Snow Days

      Day two of my being stuck in due to snow/ice is coming to an end. It’s definitely melting but the paths right outside my house were absolutely covered in ice today. As much as my chair may well handle it for the short distance to the main road (which I suspect is clearly), it’s not worth the risk.  I may get out tomorrow if it’s improved a bit, I may not.   Snow is something that worries me. It’s pretty to look at but it’s also pretty damn inaccessible.   For the last several years I’ve often stressed myself in winter working on the panicked idea that I had…

  • 2018,  mental health,  snow

    Snow Days No More

    I started writing a blog post on Thursday about how it was a snow day and what I was doing (mostly crochet and audiobook that day) but then my carer came and I saved it to drafts and never went back to it. And now it’s Sunday and it’s finally snow free and I’m out of the house for the first time since Wednesday. So this entry is now snow days no more. If memory serves there were no stuck in the house due to snow days last year. Which is good. I think maybe I coped better this time to previous snowbound times. I don’t know why that is.…

  • 2016,  mental health,  photos,  sailing,  Uncategorized

    Spotted at the Sailing Club

    There are, perhaps, five Tuesday evening sails left this year.  I personally suspect only four but five is most likely and the most it could be is six.  Although the person who runs sailability always says when asked “we try to keep sailing until the clocks change” I think I’ve only ever sailed in October once.  In a way I look forward to the off season and what that will bring – I have a couple of very exciting things planned for October and later in the year.  But most of me isn’t ready for the hot day, sunshine and sailing to come to an end.  How can it be…

  • 2016,  mental health,  Self-Care,  Uncategorized

    Quiet

    I’ve been so quiet on here and on facebook (and probably quieter than usual but not totally quiet on twitter) that a friend actually text me this morning to check I was OK because she was worried. It probably doesn’t help that I’ve also not been reading so Goodreads updates haven’t been auto posting. (Pro tip: it’s only when I go totally quiet on twitter that you need to worry. My heart belongs to twitter more than any other social network except maybe instagram) I’m OK. I just haven’t had a lot I feel like sharing lately.  I’m pretty stressed about a few things and I’ve had several pieces of…

  • 2016,  honesty,  mental health,  perceptions,  personal,  Self-Care,  sharing,  Things I am proud of,  twitter,  Uncategorized,  writing

    Safe Space

    A couple of weeks ago, a new collaborative blog – Safe Space – was launched. For the past year or so I’ve been unconvinced by the concept of “safe space” on the internet – a space where people can be free to share/be who and what they are completely without fear of abuse, hate, ridicule, triggers or trolling.  It seems like too big a goal both with how massive the internet and it’s trolling problems have become and the fact that for some people what is acceptable and OK can be what’s triggering, abusive or upsetting for others. Online (and in person) safe spaces are a worthwhile goal and one…

  • 2014,  C-A-B,  campaigns,  guest blog,  I want to change the world,  mental health,  my flat,  perceptions,  personal,  perspective,  political,  success stories,  Uncategorized

    On Volunteering and Housing Day

    Today is #HousingDay (hashtag housing day) a day designed to promote social housing and highlight all it does for people in the UK, how important it is and just what the need for social housing is. I know from my own experiences just how much having access to a flat that is fully adapted to my needs, is safe and secure (in terms of both safety and tenancy) and affordable is.  It’s more than a roof over your head it’s the ability to make plans and do things and get on with your life that might otherwise be impossible. And in both parts of my CAB  role (adviser/gateway assessor and…

  • 2014,  antidepressants,  depression,  fluoxetine,  honesty,  meds,  mental health,  personal,  Sertraline,  things people say,  treatment,  Uncategorized

    Apparently people with mental health problems just need to “tell someone”

    So Robin Williams has died.  Suicide.  And that’s sad as any death is. Facebook is full of posts with his picture sharing phone numbers and websites of helplines.  Ones telling people that “suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.”  And declarations that if you’re feeling down, if you have depression to make sure you tell someone.  Friend’s saying that they hope their friends feel capable of telling them.  And similar on twitter and other places. Here’s the thing: I have a depression diagnosis and I have a lot of anxiety at times which has been recognised by medics although it’s never been given a label like GAD (generalised…

  • 2014,  books and reading,  fiction,  mental health,  reviews,  Uncategorized

    Perfect by Rachel Joyce

    I received a review copy of Perfect by Rachel Joyce via NetGalley. I’m not compensated for this review beyond my free copy and this review is in no way influenced by the fact I was asked to write it. Here is the synopsis: In 1972, two seconds were added to time. It was in order to balance clock time with the movement of the earth. Byron Hemming knows this because James Lowe has told him and James is the cleverest boy at school. But how can time change? The steady movement of hands around a clock is as certain as their golden futures. Then Byron’s mother, late for the school…

  • 2013,  meds,  mental health,  Self-Care,  Uncategorized

    Self-Care Sunday: I Did

    Just a quickie this week because Downton Abbey is on in a few and I’m trying not to watch TV and be on the iPad at the same time. Having written last week about feeling like a failure I’ve been trying to keep that big picture in mind more. One of the things I’ve been doing is writing a list of what I’ve done/achieved each day. It’s very useful because yesterday I did very little but I’m not beating myself up about it because I know I’ve achieved a lot this week I might otherwise have overlooked. Plus, knowing I’m going to be writing it down means I’ve eaten a…

  • 2013,  acceptance,  antidepressants,  courage,  depression,  difficulties,  fluoxetine,  guest blog,  meds,  mental health,  normal,  Sertraline,  sharing,  treatment,  Uncategorized,  writing

    Talking, Ten Years Later

    It’s that time of the month again when I mosey on over to Bea Magazine and share what I’m thinking, feeling, doing, whatever with them. I don’t like February. There have been a lot of tough times in previous ones and there are several anniversaries now in a short time. It’s been long enough now that most of their sting has gone but still it lurks. This year I remembered the dates but it wasn’t until several days into the month when I wondered why I felt down and put it together that its often a time I struggle. Yesterday marked 10 years since I was first diagnosed with depression.…