>I should have known for just one second you’d be back to bother me…

>As I mentioned in yesterday’s entry I’m up 1lb this week.

Which means in the last four weeks I’ve lost 1 lb, gained 1 lb, lost 1 lb and then now gained it again.
Part of me is really tempted just to say “fuck it!” and deal with my weight after Christmas but I’m not going to do that.
I’ve taken my meds every day this month and I’ve drunk water as well each day (which is an improvement) although not the 1.5L that is my goal every day. Exercise is the one I’m really struggling with but I am pleased with what I’ve managed. I need to go update my progress entry with that info.
But first, I think, Lunch is a must.

>End of November Updates

>I have zero time for a proper update.

I’ve just posted an update post below this where I hope to track how I do with my main goals each day this month. Hoping having it visible for comments will help me keep on track better than the spreadsheet idea did (went out the window after about five days).
Lost 1lb this week! So that’s the one I gained last week, gone.
and means that in November 2009
I wrote 60,594 words for NaNoWriMo making me a winner for the first time since 2006 (I think)
And I lost 5lb!

>NaNoDieYe December 2009 Update Post


1.5L of water a day
15 mins of exercise (everyday except Christmas Day)
If the date is in purple it means I hit all goals. Turquoise means I attempted all goals but didn’t complete them. Red dates indicate one or more goals failed.
01/12/09 – 15 mins dancing, 1.5L water, meds taken!
02/12/09 – Meds, 15 mins not weights, 1.5L+ of water (1.5L plus half a cup)

03/12/09 – Meds, five minutes standing stretches, 1.5L of water
04/12/09 – Water 1.5L (finishing the last of it now) – done, meds. no exercise 🙁

>Up 1

>I am up a pound this week. And also a day late weighing as the scales weren’t working yesterday. I thought they needed new batteries but the display started working again so I dunno what happened.

I’m neither bothered nor surprised about being up a pound but very glad it’s not more. I only made one or two very small healthier choices this week so overall it wasn’t very conducive to good weightloss. Next week if I don’t lose I would like to maintain at the very least… ideally I want to be 18st by Christmas but that’s 10lb off so I’m thinking a bit unrealistic. We shall see.
Tomorrow I’m seeing the practice nurse for a chat about my weight and all that jazz which I’m hoping will lead to me coming away with a little more motivation. Tonight I’m going to see an old friend

>[insert witty and amusing title here]

>I am tired right now but I want to get this done sooner than later. Plus I’m not sure I’m tired as such as fried my brain. We shall see.

This week I’ve managed several times to turn down things I wanted or to make healthier choices. The smaller pizza in Pizza Hut rather than the bigger one. Turned down the free biscuits, cake and bacon sandwiches on the train and just took the free drink that sort of thing. And as I already said a few days ago I’ve done a lot more wheeling of my manual chair than I usually would.

The main news this week, however, is that I think having my new desk is going to do wonders for my diet. Previously I was eating pretty much all of my meals whilst I was on the computer and I was also snacking on here as well. Truly my old desk was such a huge mess. A lot of it was from 3 years of hard daily use and it having a busted leg. But quite a big part of it if I’m honest was as a result of my using it as a table to eat off of it.

Ever since my parents took my old desk down on Thursday night I have eaten one meal at my desk and NO SNACKS there. Which in reality means my snacking has been cut down quite a lot as previously I could do so without thinking really, just grab something and come back here to whatever I was doing. And as I was usually writing or online or both whilst eating/snacking I was always paying atttention to what I was eating. Which meant it’s not unheard of for me to be eating, finish my meal or snack or whatever and then expect there to be some left because it’s been mindless.
I’m not denying myself snacks or whatever just having them in front of the computer and so far I’ve not really missed them. So I’ve just not had them. I guess that’s a pointer to just how ingrained in habit some of my eating had become. Or a lot of it. Maybe even most of it, it’s hard to know for sure.
And this is the second week running where I’ve managed one day with no coke and another with no chocolate. Hoping that next week I can manage the same but also add in one day of neither. That would rock.
It’s quite a small baby step type goal (or actually both the cutting down the coke and chocolate as I just described above and the not eating on my computer are small baby step goals come to think of it) but it’s a start and I think small is the way to start.
Besides, given the mammoth NaNo goal I’ve just set for myself, I can’t handle any other big goals right about now.
The best news however is that I’m down another 3lb! Woo!

>Going Down!

>Brief check in for the Healthy You Challenge this week.

In bullet points:
  • Managed one day with NO CHOCOLATE at all
  • Managed another with NO COKE at all and without feeling overally ill
  • Have a sinusitis type thing going on
  • Keep having nose bleeds
  • Made healthier choices on most days in the past week
  • Drinking more water
  • Wheeled myself all the way around IKEA for three whole hours on Sunday
  • Did a fair amount of walking at my parents house on Saturday.
The result?
2lb lost.
And my NaNoWriMo attempt is up to 19,531 words

>Updating because Updating is good.

>Firstly, I’m still doing NaNoWriMo. I’m at 8300 and some odd words so far. Only about 200 of those words were written today so I need to get going on some more writing otherwise I’m going to lose my lovely word cushion (official NaNo day three goal is 5001 by bed time but I started today at 8149). I keep going backwards and forwards on the question of whether I like what I’m writing. There are some bits I really like and other bits that are just complete crap. Part of me does wish I’d skipped the original fiction idea and gone for the fanfic one. But really I am glad I didn’t.

My username on the NaNoWriMo site is WheelchairPrincess if anyone wants to add me as a buddy or check out my progress.
I’ve finally stopped and had several days of not very much after weeks on end of busy busy busy. And I can’t say I’ve been feeling very great with it. But today I do feel better than yesterday (headache aside). Next weekend is going to be crazy however.
It’s strange, I never thought before that I was particularly busy (these last few weeks aside) but a couple of times lately my mum has described me as always being “so busy” and I realised that she’s right.
Weight is up a few pounds this week to 19 st (I forget if I put my weight in last week but it was 18 12.5). Disappointed but given I had three days running which all had eating out, take aways and/or cocktails in them not surprising.
I have made myself a spreadsheet which has a list of goals down the side and then the dates across the top – I did it until the end of the year. Some of the goals relate to being healthier and losing weight. Others are things like going to bed at a reasonable time, doing stuff around the house, spending time out of my chair, reading and crafts. The things I always say I’m going to do and don’t always manage very consistently (or manage at all in some cases). It’s only been two days but I’m trying to be in the mindset of “that’s another one ticked off” and I think it will prove useful so I can see where I’m managing and where I’m falling down. Also if there are any patterns to the way things go for me I’m sure they will become obvious after a few more days and then I can maybe try and do something about them.
The list of goals isn’t long but I wrote it with the goal of trying to do some each day rather than all each day and so it is longer than would reasonable be consistently doable on a daily basis. I may have to rethink this but so far I’ve surprised myself with how many I’ve achieved.
Hoping for a much more positive update next week!

>Ugh, annoyed

>In the past two days I have not met any of my three daily goals. Ugh.

The goals are
daily meds
10 minutes of exercise
2L of water
And in fact, I have had nothing to drink today but coke and a tiny amount of bitter lemon first thing.
I’m gonna go have a glass of water and my meds in a min.
Basically some of you will know that a couple of somethings I can’t blog about happened and got me very down. And then I get annoyed with myself for still being upset because the other people involved will have moved on and really it’s not my problem. And it’s just generally a vicious circle.
Plus I’m due my period and I get vicious, vicious serious PMS which is totally what this is. It’s actually my worst depression symptom. Knowing this for what it is and that it should be better tomorrow or Saturday does help. But it also doesn’t.
I’ve been in quite a good routine whereby I drink water as soon as I get up and right before bed (as well as at other times in the day) and my meds are by the sink so I grab them at bedtime. But yesterday I ran late and didn’t drink anything before I left the house. Then I found a bottle of bitter lemon I’d forgotten about and that was that.
And so I completely forgot about my meds until I was ready for bed, half asleep and just wearing my knickers. And my kitchen has no blinds and I know this is pathetic and ridiculous but putting clothes on (it looks out onto a public footpath) was too much effort.
My baclofen prescription is being changed to tablets soon and when that happens I’m going to put a blister pack by the sink and one on my desk so I don’t have that excuse any more. Maybe in the bathroom as well. The reminder is going back on my phone too.
Today was just a case of it had gone wrong already so why not just let it keep going.
Exercise is the one I’m struggling with the most out of all three, meds and water were ones I was finding were getting much easier.
Tomorrow however is a brand new day and I am going to meet all of those goals.
I’m also going to clear off my desk, do several loads of washing (I need clean clothes, towels, tea towels, bedding etc desperately) and read a book.
Determined Emma is back.
And everyone who wants to bring me down whether deliberately or accidentally can go fuck themselves, basically.