>A Good Things List

>When I originally wrote my Good Things List it was after three weeks without coke or chocolate.  As it’s now been more than 100 days it’s time for an update!

  • Previously I’ve had a tendency towards high blood pressure.  Today it was 128/80 or totally normal
  • Blood draws should be easier as I get thinner. Being I’m a terrible stick that’s a good thing.
  • At the beginning of the year my lifejacket straps were as big as we could adjust them.  I’ve had to tighten them a couple of times this year!
  • My measurements have changed downwards slightly.
  • My BMI has gone from 46 something to 42 something according to the nurse.
  • I bought a t shirt in a size smaller on Tuesday as they didn’t have my usual size. It’s a little tight but it’s wearable.  And it’s really cool.
  • Being down from a 26 to a 22.
  • I have gained a little weight here and there but the general trend is downwards and I’m at my lowest of this journey now.
  • I haven’t gone back above 18 stone since I hit the 17s

>My new lucky number

>I’m down three quarters of a pound this week.  Which is definitely better than nothing.  Considering I went out to eat at Prezzo last Wednesday and then went to Frankie and Benny’s on Thursday it’s actually pretty good.

I really can’t think of much else to say this week.  I did buy some new clothes this morning.  I do have to take one of the pairs of trousers back as they are a lot too small but I’d wondered that when I bought them partially because they were only £5 and also a different style to my normal.  A second pair (pinky cords) did up but was too tight.  I’m keeping those though as I think I’m not far off of being OK with those.

I wear clothes with elasticated waists a lot of the time.  They tend to fit a lot better because of my size and shape and also because of my CP I find them easier (because I don’t have to faff with buttons etc when balancing to pull them up and down – I can do it but it’s not always easy).  I’ve especially done that since I found lovely black trousers from Evans last year which are really smart but have elastic in the back.  At the beginning of the year I was wearing a size 26 in those trousers with the elastic in the back.

The cords I bought this morning?  Have absolutely no elastic in them.  And are a size 22!!

22 must be something of a lucky number for me today as my total weight loss is now 22 and a quarter pounds. *big grin*

And, as I wrote on Sunday, I’ve now passed 100 days without any coke or chocolate!!!!! *even bigger grin*

>100 Days!

>Today is the 100th Day of my being off of Coke and all things chocolate.   The last day I had either was 30th April.

For this girl who was drinking about a litre of the stuff everyday and eating over 100g of chocolate each day, that’s amazing.  Particularly given the fact that the original goal was 3 weeks!!

I did consider that my next goal should be weight related rather than time (specifically I was thinking of “until I’ve reached 3 stone lost”) but now I’m thinking a time based goal might be better.  3 stone would mean I’d doubled my total weight loss and there’s no guarantee how long that will take.  I think it might turn into a goal that’s easy to ignore.  So I’ve decided that the goal is six months (August is month 4)

I do feel a lot better for it and in ways that surprise me too (as well as those which I expected).  But that’s probably a post for another day.

Instead of Coke I drink diet lemonade, water, squash and some other things but those are the main ones.  To be honest I should probably drink a lot more water and less of the diet lemonade and squash.  Anything is better than all the coke though.  I don’t snack as much as I used to now which is great.  Although there are definite times when I could do with cutting it down.  Mostly I have mini bits of shortbread or flapjack when I do snack.  There are now whole days when I don’t snack which is definitely new.

I’m really proud of myself that I’m beating this addiction (I don’t think it’s a good idea to say I’ve beaten it) and how well I’m doing with my weight loss.  Here’s to lots more to come (I hope)!

>101 in 100 – Item 48…

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Get better control of emotional/bored eating

…has been completed!

This one is maybe a little bit iffy.  But I had a terrible week last week.  And I still managed to avoid all chocolate and coke and didn’t binge on anything else either.  So I feel I can tick it off although I must admit to being a little concerned that once I start allowing myself occasional chocolate and coke again I might slip back into old habits.

Wednesday, I got some malware on my computer and it went really screwy.  I sorted it out but it took until I e-mailed my cousin for me to get it 100% better.  Later the same day the one grab rail in my bathroom I can’t manage the loo without broke.  That got sorted the same day but it was a little stressful!  Especially as it broke just as I was about to go to the loo.  The bit that held it on the wall was made of plastic and the screws stayed in the wall but that snapped.  Thankfully the new one is made of plastic coated metal so should be much more secure.

Thursday I did a loop of town.  Went to the library, picked up my prescriptions and went to the supermarket.  Then on the way home my chair died a death in the middle of the supermarket car park. Luckily I was on the path at the time and vaguely in some shade.

Some passersby tried to help me but couldn’t get my chair into free wheel and there wasn’t anything obviously wrong like something jammed in a wheel to see why I was stopped (I was being jolted quite badly and despite trying to drive forward or backward it was sending me in circles).  Several lots of passersby stopped, even when I managed to get hold of my mum (she was out when I first tried her and everyone else was at work) and she was down with me.

Mum had a good look at it too and still couldn’t see anything but after a bit of a fight with it she did get it to go into free wheel – I don’t think I’ve ever had it in it before so I suspect it was probably just stiff.  I called for a wheelchair accessible taxi to get me home but there weren’t any available for over an hour. Tried to call the engineer but no answer.

Eventually Mum went into the supermarket and arranged with them to leave my chair there, which I believe they weren’t very happy about but did agree to.  They also have a manual in there for customer use and she used that to get me to her car.  Strangely there were no footplates for that chair as they’d been stolen!  I thought that was a bit bizarre.

I managed to get hold of the engineer not long after we left to come home and he picked it up later that day.  It needs to go back to be properly fixed but they’ve got it working for now and it’s safe to use – the gear box went I think he said.  Well, I’m sure that’s what he said but I didn’t realise powerchairs had those.  Wheelchair repairs are not cheap though!

Friday I didn’t go out at all because I didn’t have my powerchair and it was so hot.  A good friend popped round and bought McDonalds for lunch.  That was fun to see her and we sat outside.  I really didn’t enjoy the McDonalds as much as I thought I would though. Which is a good thing I guess as it’s not great for my diet but nice as an occasional treat.

Saturday I picked up my powerchair mid afternoon and drove that home.

I must admit that Saturday night I got hit by a bit of an attack of the “being disabled is hard” blues that come very occasionally too me.  Not surprising considering I’d had two disability crises in the days before, but not easy to deal with.  I’m feeling a bit better now but I was a bit fed up yesterday still.  That’s another reason why I’m ticking this goal off as done because it’s another time when I would have eaten to feel better – and I didn’t.

I’ve lost just under 2lb this week.  Which gets rid of the 1 and a bit I gained last week and puts me half a pound lower than I was the week before.  So I’m moving forward again.  I’m feeling pleased about that

>Four months update

>I was just sat here wondering what to title this entry when I realised that today is exactly 4 months since I started losing weight this time.  The fact that I’ve stuck at this for four months and made real progress is amazing.  I think the last time I managed something like this was 2002/2003.

I’m up 1 and about a quarter pounds this week.  As I wrote last week however, I’d eaten very little for a few days before that weigh in as I’d been ill (nothing on one day as the 1 thing I ate didn’t stay down).  This week I’ve been eating normally And I have my period.  I’m not trying to justify myself and I don’t feel bad about it.  I’m well aware that a few times this week I probably didn’t make as good choices as I could have done.  But no one can expect to lose every week without fail – and I certainly don’t.

My period is another something I’m pleased about because once my weight got up really high I started having loads of problems with it.  Whilst I don’t have a proper PCOS diagnosis my GP is sure I do have polycystic ovaries.  Whether I have the syndrome to go with it is unknown but I do have a lot of other things going on like depression which would tie in with it. She was thinking that losing weight would help with that.   I’d not had a period since the end of March and before that it had been crazy too, skipping months and coming twice in January etc.  I’m not saying that I think losing this much weight has been the cure for the whole thing but it does make me see that I’m definitely getting healthier.  And hopefully in a few more months I’ll have lost more weight and can get back to a more regular cycle which would probably make me feel better in a lot of ways.

I’ve now passed 50 days without Coke or Chocolate.  I was telling someone about that yesterday and she was horrified to hear how much coke I was drinking each day before, wondering what that must have been doing to my insides.  Which is totally a fair comment.  I do feel a lot better for it.

And the other week I had to adjust my lifejacket because the straps were much too loose!

>50 days!

>Today is day 50 since I’ve had any coke or chocolate.  It was one of my 101 in 1001 goals to go without for three weeks.  I think currently I’m aiming for two months without but part of me is wondering if 100 days would be an achievable goal.  That would be a long term one though, I think short term two months and then ten weeks will be the goals. Short term goals on the way to long term ones are most achievable I think, and most satisfying.

For perspective I was drinking something like a litre of full fat coke everyday and eating a big bar (100g+) of something, usually galaxy.  I was managing to lose weight by cutting it down and trying to have a day or two every week where I didn’t have it.  And trying to increase that.  But it really wasn’t working.

Because the truth of the matter is I was addicted to them both.  Especially the coke.  I would get bad headaches if I didn’t have very much.  Really bad.  I suspect that has to do with the caffeine.  Given that I drink neither tea or coffee that means I’ve now been caffeine free for 7 weeks.  And surprisingly enough I didn’t really have any headaches when I first came off of it.  Which I’ve pretty much always had when I tried before and had put me off doing it a bit.  I suppose that’s part of doing it at the right time.  There’s definitely something to be said.for that.

And when I say no chocolate I don’t just mean bars of chocolate.  No hot chocolate, no chocolate biscuits, no chocolate cake, no chocolate chip muffins.  If it has anything to do with chocolate it’s had nothing to do with me.

If I worked this out right and I’m pretty sure I did, of the 17lb I have lost, 11lb of those have gone since I gave up coke and chocolate.  Looks like I need to update my good things list!

>One Stone Goal – Done!

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Down another 2 and a half pounds today.  Total weight loss is now 1 stone and half a pound!  I’m so pleased.  I’m now 17st 12 & 7/8lb.  I did see 19st 1 at one point at the beginning of the year but my official starting weight was 18st 13&1/2 lb – I didn’t have my scales for several weeks in between the two.  My mum commented today that I am so far from 20 stone now.  Apparently at the beginning of the year she was really worried that if I kept going the way I was I’d be ending this year weighing over 20st.

And because I am feeling mathematically inclined today.  My BMI has dropped 2.6 numbers which if I’ve worked it out right means when I lose a little more than another stone I’ll be saying goodbye the the morbidly obese category and just be “obese” which will be huge progress even if it doesn’t sound like it..  And I’ve lost a little over 5% of my starting weight.

I don’t have a set weight goal at the moment as such but I do have an idea of what I’d like to be between (between 11 and a half stone and 12 and a half stone) although according to the charts that would probably still have me as overweight.  Obviously however those charts are unrealistic when in actual use and as a full time wheelchair user I could potentially seriously increase my pressure sore risk (already high is) if I was much skinnier than that.  Bony bits need padding when you sit on them all the time!  But that works out as somewhere between another 75lb and 89lb left to lose.

I did briefly blog about this on the day it happened – but in January I was wearing a size 26 from Evans.  I fitted into a 22 from there last week.

I have a lot to be pleased about it seems.

>Going Great

>One of these days I will get here to blog with enough time to write something properly.  I really will.  In fact I hope it’ll be tomorrow.  But it’s not tonight.

I weighed this morning and I was down 2lb!  Sooo pleased with that as I was convinced I’d show another gain due to yesterday’s particularly bad eating and the fact I’ve snacked a bit more this past week.  Down 12 and a half overall so that’s last weeks gain gone again and a little bit more

But I think really I have been snacking more but still less than I would have done back in the days when I was eating chocolate all the time and drinking coke.  It wasn’t unheard of for me to get to the end of a day and realise I’d had nothing to drink but coke all day and then quickly drink a small bit of water to “make it better”.  And now it’s been over a month since I’ve had either.  It’s definitely got a lot easier but I’m not sure I’d say it’s easy as such.

I am wearing brand new linen three quarter lengths from Evans in a size 22.  At the beginning of the year I was wearing a size 26 in their trousers. It’s all very yay!

Also two others things I’ve noticed

  1. I have more definition in my face.  Not much but some.  Feels a bit like my chin is a bit pointy again.  In a good way.
  2. My feet are less swollen.  My being in a chair all the time means the blood pools in my feet and they swell a bit (or a lot if I’m honest).  But not as much any more.
So it’s pretty much going good.  Add in four months with no missed meds and it’s going great, in fact.

>101 in 1001 – Item 58…

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Go three weeks without eating chocolate or drinking coke

…has been completed!

Well, actually it’s been completed for a couple of days and is still on going.  Today is day 25 without chocolate or coke (starting on the first of the month makes tracking these things easy!).  Which for this girl who had a serious addiction to both and wasn’t doing great at cutting them down but not out is amazing.  The end of this month is my current mini goal but I think two months is my real goal at present.

But, of course, in reality, this has to be how I eat for the rest of my life if I want to maintain my weight and lose weight.  I must admit that’s been something I’ve been trying to get my head round and it’s not been particularly easy.  Never is probably too much of a goal but an occasional small (normal) sized portion would be OK. When I went to the nurse she described it as the first month is trying things out and the second month is reinforcing that this is it.

I do and I don’t miss them both.  Yesterday I was in the mood where I would have liked some chocolate but I knew I didn’t need it and not having it didn’t bother me really after a little while.  Plus, as I reminded myself the weather being so hot it would have been all melty and not as nice.

Coke I think is more then that.  But part of that comes down to how ingrained in our society that drink is.  That’s something that I’ve been noticing a lot lately and I’m not sure I like it.  I’d post a big rant about that but I’d rather go read a book right now I think.  Actually I think I miss it less than chocolate, especially since I’ve realised that about society but it’s harder to avoid.  If you go to the pub and you don’t want to drink alcohol and don’t drink coke, what do you drink?  Both times I’ve been lately I’ve had J20 (which gets a bit sickly after a while) – and comments about how I may as well be drinking coke.

The best things about not drinking coke or eating chocolate.

Finally, my weight was up 1 1/4 lb this morning.  But that’s to be expected for a number of reasons and I’m not disappointed.  I’ve still lost 5lb this month and if I keep doing that every month for the rest of the year (I do realise this may be an unrealistic goal) I could lose another two and a half stone.

oh and if you want to read the rest of my 101 in 1001 list or find out what the project is about – this is the link

>A Good Things List

>Good things about having given up chocolate and coke and not having had any for almost three weeks.

  • Being told repeatedly by different people that the skin on my face looks a lot clearer and finally seeing what everyone means today.
  • My eyes are brighter.
  • When I went to the nurse this afternoon her jaw practically dropped when I told her.
  • I’ve lost a lot of weight over these few weeks (over 5lb)
  • I still have disgusting feet but now it’s mostly just my nails and not my skin as well.
  • Getting lots of encouragement from different people.
  • Realising that I was addicted to Coke and Chocolate but it is something I can totally overcome.