• 2013,  Attempts at World Domination,  creative,  ranting,  thinking,  Uncategorized,  writing

    On being a writer

    I know you want to sing. See. I love to sing. Nothing makes me happier.I either wanted to be a singer or the head of the Ice Capades. Hey. Do you know who the Ice Capades are? Don’t roll your eyes. They were very cool. I went to my mother who gave me this book…called Letters To A Young Poet. Rainer Maria Rilke. He’s a fabulous writer. A fellow used to write to him and say: “I want to be a writer. Please read my stuff.” And Rilke says to this guy: “Don’t ask me about being a writer. lf when you wake up in the morning you can think…

  • 2013,  acceptance,  benefits,  DLA,  ESA,  guest blog,  perceptions,  personal,  Uncategorized,  writing

    File this under “you couldn’t make it up.”

    Last Wednesday I got the news that I’ve been awarded ESA for two years. I’ve been put straight into the support group. It’s definitely the right decision and now I’ve had a chance to think about things and calm down I’m relieved its sorted and ok with it. But it’s not a comfortable place and if I’m completely honest I felt like I must be much more disabled than I realised. I wrote more about that, the ESA process and how it relates to me over on Bea Magazine And then yesterday I got a letter telling me about my DLA entitlement for this year. And all about how DLA…

  • 2013,  acceptance,  antidepressants,  courage,  depression,  difficulties,  fluoxetine,  guest blog,  meds,  mental health,  normal,  Sertraline,  sharing,  treatment,  Uncategorized,  writing

    Talking, Ten Years Later

    It’s that time of the month again when I mosey on over to Bea Magazine and share what I’m thinking, feeling, doing, whatever with them. I don’t like February. There have been a lot of tough times in previous ones and there are several anniversaries now in a short time. It’s been long enough now that most of their sting has gone but still it lurks. This year I remembered the dates but it wasn’t until several days into the month when I wondered why I felt down and put it together that its often a time I struggle. Yesterday marked 10 years since I was first diagnosed with depression.…

  • 2012,  disability,  Disability Glossary,  disability rights,  good things,  Uncategorized,  writing

    Nothing About Us Without Us

    I’m trying to work my way through a series of disability specific terms and especially some disability specific concepts and define them for my blog. A sort of glossary of disability according to Emma if you will. I’ve also been asked to contribute monthly to Bea Magazine. My first piece went up there today and happily the subject I wanted to write about for them is also something I would have written about in my disability glossary. (Although I hadn’t actually planned for it to me the next entry in my glossary). I’m sure all of my readers are now breathing a sigh of relief that they don’t have to…

  • 100 days of writing,  2012,  haiku,  Poetry,  Uncategorized,  writing

    >A Few Haiku #poetry #100daysofwriting #haiku #amwriting

    >One of the things I’ve been hoping that will come out of this 100 days of writing project is that I’ll be stretched as a writer. And that’s definitely happening, the daily commitment is tough to maintain. But I’m enjoying it and I think the discipline of it is helping me a lot. I want to be stretched as a writer in other ways though. One of the things I’ve always struggled with is set forms of poetry. And particularly haiku. I get confused by the syllables and knowing how many a word has. I really want to get the hang of it because I think it’s something that could…

  • 2012,  NaNoWriMo,  Uncategorized,  writing

    >A few writing thoughts

    >I can’t remember if I shared this already but by the end of November I was still loving the writing but I was just done with the project I was working on. Totally bored of it. Talking to others who did NaNo that seemed to be pretty normal thing. I’d probably go as far as to say its an expected part of the nanowrimo process. But that said I don’t remember it being as hard in years gone by. I did have several instances of life kicking me in the teeth in other ways during the month though. Two weeks later however I’m finding that I’m really missing the writing.…

  • Family,  friends,  NaNoWriMo,  tv,  Uncategorized,  writing

    >Somethings are more important

    >I had hoped to update my blog this evening with the news that I had won NaNoWriMo for the third fourth (was sure it would be the third but then after I hit publish I looked on the NaNo site which says otherwise) time.  But that was not to be. I am so close to winning that it’s pretty much a given that will happen.  Just not today.  I have about 4K left I think.  In all honest it’s a bit of a mess though as I’ve ended up writing bits of both the projects I considered dong for NaNo and a tiny bit of a short story that landed in…

  • NaNoWriMo,  Uncategorized,  writing,  writing prompts

    >Stop! NaNo Time!

    >Yes it is indeed that most wonderful time of the year – NaNoWriMo. And just because the madness that is writing 50 thousand words in 30 days wasn’t enough for me this year I’m also one of the Municipal Liaisons for Oxfordshire. It’s going well so far although not as well or as fast as I’d hoped.  I’ve been very lacking in motivation for the past day or so which means I’ve not hit the goals I’d set for myself but I have hit and exceeded the standard day one and day two goals.  The goal is 1,667 words a day and I’m ending day two with 4,462 words meaning…

  • depression,  hopes and dreams,  Sertraline,  Uncategorized,  writing

    >Writing is my passion

    >I’m writing again.  Regularly and in decent amounts when I do write.  It’s only been this week but I’ve written everyday so I’m sure that counts as regular.  And today I’ve done absolutely loads. I’ve been wanting to write I really have.  But with the way my depression crashed in and hit me I was fine if I had to leave the house and go somewhere for a set time, that I could do.  If it was something I had to do in my house like stick some clothes in to wash and something I needed to do but not at a set time that was a huge struggle.  And…