• memes,  Uncategorized

    >The Friday Five for the first time ever!

    >Meme time because there’s no one interesting to talk to online The Friday Five1. Do you like chicken? I love it. Absolutely favourite food. I have chicken sandwiches for lunch more often than not and I have variations of it for dinner all the time too. 2. What is 1 food you can’t live without? Chocolate baby, chocolate. And also that sweet brown fizzy stuff that’s known as Coca-Cola. Both terribly bad for me and I’m totally addicted to both. 3. Are you an early bird or a night owl? I’m a night owl in a very bad way. I’ve been known to go to bed at 2am on nights…

  • argh,  down,  sick crip,  Uncategorized,  writing

    >Keep on keeping on

    >That’s been my motto for the last few days and I think i may slowly, very slowly, be getting there. A very good friend (who knows who she is) plugged me into a support system yesterday and that’s been really helpful. That’s all I’m happy to talk about that here at the moment. Oh actually I might just add that I appear to be unable to turn my CAB brain off and there is a tiny tiny silly thing about this support system that is making my CAB side go “ARRRRRGH should you really be doing that?!” not because it bothers me but as always seems to be the story…

  • books and reading,  memes,  Uncategorized

    >A Thursday Thirteen of Books I’ve Read in 2006

    > Thirteen Books EMMA has read this year 1…. The Luxury of Time by Jane and Mike Tomlinson2…. Ghost Girl by Torey Hayden3…. Behind Closed Doors by Jenny Tomlin4…. Rosie by Lesley Pearse5…. Star Trek: Tales from The Captain’s Table – various authors6…. Where Rainbow’s End by Cecelia Ahern7… The Chalet School and Barbara by Elinor M. Brent Dyer8… Dancing Barefoot by Wil Wheaton9… Hannah’s Gift: Lessons from a Life Fully Lived by Maria Housden10… The Ivy Chronicles by Karen Quinn11… Star Trek Voyager: Distant Shores – Various authors12… Star Trek Titan: The Red King by Andy Mangels and Michael A. Martin13… Star Trrek Titan: Orion’s Hounds by Christopher L.…

  • General Life Stuff 2006 - 2008,  Uncategorized

    >OK… thought this might be fun

    >I just had an idea. I’m gonna post a random line from a song and I want to see who can guess right what song it comes from. Soph, you’re disqualified from participating because you know and that would be unfair! Dancing’s for another day So… get guessing! I decided to add a few more for your guessing pleasure and my amusement.  Soph you can guess this one if you want. There must be something that you always wanted to And… Can you tell me how to get A clue of sorts: most of these are songs I’ve been listening to on a nostalgia kick lately Can’t wear this uniform…

  • General Life Stuff 2006 - 2008,  Uncategorized

    >My carer will (should) be here soon. Just thought I’d type here for a few minutes before she comes. I’ve turned off comments for this post. I find it hard to deal with people’s responses to me when I’m depressed, I just want to use this space to express myself and get it out. I hate that people don’t understand what I go thru but then that’s also good for them because you can’t understand it if you’ve never been thru it and not having gone thru it is a good thing. For them… not so much for me. I feel sick. Maybe if i ever get around to making…

  • C-A-B,  down,  General Life Stuff 2006 - 2008,  Uncategorized

    >Tuesday: a day in bullet point form.

    > Very depressed. Also sick with physical issues – maybe viral or maybe a physical manifestation of my depression. Called my supervisor and told her I didn’t feel well but would go in if she wanted me too. She said to stay home. So I did. I’m proud of myself for realising that I wouldn’t be much use at CAB today and I don’t feel at all guilty for not being there. More importantly I don’t feel like my CP is winning because I didn’t go in. Hell, it didn’t have anything to do w/ my cp but before if I took time off it to me was a failure…

  • General Life Stuff 2006 - 2008,  Uncategorized

    >Lots of time off…

    >I am feeling a little better than I was when I wrote my earlier update. I should probably have added to that that I feel physically crap today and I’d kind of fallen into that delightful spiral whereby I’m depressed and then I start feeling physically ill and then I get more depressed because I’m sick and then…. A two hour nap and the fact I managed to overcome my nausea and keep a sandwich and some chocolate down has improved the situation immensely. I’m not long off getting what for me is an early night tho. I have lots of time off coming up. That is something which can…

  • thinking,  Uncategorized

    >A few conclusions and a few decisions

    > I’ve come to the conclusion that at present my depression is the worst it’s been in a long, long time. I think that there are two things which may be playing a part in this and have made a decision that if within the next two weeks (when these should resolve) I’m feeling no better I will go back to my doctor and talk things over. It’s a tough decision to make but it’s one I needed to make. I realised that part of the reason I got so down is because I don’t take good care of myself and sometimes in my life because of the person I…

  • awareness,  I want to change the world,  Uncategorized,  writing

    >Respect for all

    >I believe that disability awareness is a very good thing, as is acceptance. I also believe that some people who harp on about how people need to be more aware and/or accepting are hypocritical. Someone I know (but don’t know that well) and his partner have recently spent a considerable amount of time talking to me about how it isn’t fair the way disabled people get treated and everything we have to go thru. He had a stroke a few years ago. Yes, disabled people deserve respect. I agree with that. Yes, we should be treated the same as normal people. I agree with that, although I don’t agree with…

  • General Life Stuff 2006 - 2008,  Uncategorized

    >Questions and Answers and a “Friday Sixteen”

    >I almost did a list of all of the plays and musicals I’ve seen at the theatre yesterday for my T13. But, I didn’t think I’d seen anything like 13 so I did my memories of my childhood instead. Then last night I got curious and made a list of what I had seen. And so, a Friday Sixteen: Barnum Joseph and The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat Rent Grease (three times) Rocky Horror (twice) Fame Sing-a-Long-a-Abba Chicago Lord of The Dance The Full Monty Saturday Night Fever Oliver Bugsy Malone Cats An Inspector Calls Phantom of The Opera on Ice Answers to Comments… No, I never got to meet Tony Hart.…