>101 in 1001 – Item 43…


Sort the black hole known as “under the bed”

…has been completed.

Mum came round this morning and helped me to blitz my bedroom including under there and it looks so much better.

And two others are almost done but for stumbling blocks.

I’m pleased, I wanted at least one thing ticked off before the end of the year so that I could say I’d written the list and completed at least one goal in 2008.

>A Review of 2008 in Survey Form

>For the 5th Year Running: – 

A Review of 2008 in Survey Form

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?

Sailed competitively.  Took a creative writing course

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Honestly I can’t remember.  If I made any I suspect they were to complete more of my 101 in 1001 (which I did) and to lose weight (fail!).  I may make more.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?



4. Did anyone close to you die?

No! (you have no idea how pleased I am with that answer, having had to answer yes the last three times).  My great uncle did die but I didn’t really know him and truthfully I’m not even sure I ever met him properly – my Nan’s family is big and complicated and it used to be “normal” to be out shopping with her and for her to be chatting to someone I’d never met and be told it was her brother or her niece or whatever.

5. What countries did you visit?

None, just England for me this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?

I’d like to take a break that’s actually a break and to travel abroad again.  And more money.  I’ve felt my life has been a bit out of control over the last few months and I’d like that control back more than I’d like money but it’s related. 

7. What date from 2008  will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

None really.  I was tempted to say the first regatta but I can’t remember the date exactly, so no.  We could go with 10th – 15th September which is the crazy several days where I 1) had all my hair cut off 2) went to the NEC with mum for the knitting and stitching show 3) Took part in the Challenger National Championships.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Making some tough decisions; planning and reaching long held goals; deciding to stop wallowing and start making my dreams a reality.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I can’t help but be disappointed that some of the tough decisions had to be made because my attempts at bringing change failed.  I actually don’t think those failures were my fault as such so I probably shouldn’t be disappointed.  But disappointed I am.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I had several small viral bugs etc (including one now that does not appear to want to clear up).  But overall I’ve been pretty healthy.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Acer Aspire One Netbook

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

Not sure.  I have some good friends who’ve been really supportive and helpful this year.  And naming no names someone else I wouldn’t necessarily call a friend as such was so calm and OK about one of my big decisions. And also continues to be very supportive about it despite the fact that good as it is for me it more than likely caused problems for her.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

“Appalled and depressed” may be a touch too strong but I have been very frustated (and once or twice upset) this year by the behaviour of several carers and also people who aren’t carers but who are supposed to provide me with services as a part of their jobs and have failed to do so.  The carer thing may be because I’ve had all new ones over the last month or so and new carers are always hard.  But truthfully I didn’t expect nor did it need to be this hard.  And it has been an on and off issue since January at times.  I am toying with alternative ideas for that magical time “after christmas”

14. Where did most of your money go?

Bills.  And clearing my overdraft then ending up back in it a couple of times.  Not a good financial year for me.  Fixing this is a goal for next year.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Various theatre trips particularly the Lion King.  Oh and the Knitting and Stitching Show.  

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?

I can’t think. This survey seems much harder this year than in previous ones


17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? The same or a little happier

ii. thinner or fatter? fatter (significantly)

iii. richer or poorer? Poorer in monetary terms of at least it feels like it!

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Things that matter; just lately I seem to be spending much more time online doing things that fill my time but aren’t necessarily productive.  Next year I hope to achieve more things and make more of a difference to myself and to  others.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Getting frustrated and upset about things that just don’t matter in the long run.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

At my parents house.  Although for the first time, I will not sleep there.  Instead I will go up about five ish this afternoon for dinner and festivities then my Dad will walk me back at bedtime to sleep and shower here.  I will get ready to face the day here tomorrow then walk up in my powerchair and spend the day with the family before some walks me back at bedtime again. Lather, rinse, repeat.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?

No, love is overrated.  I did come closer than before though.  And for the first time it is something I could maybe see in my future.

23. How many one-night stands?


24. What was your favourite TV programme?

I don’t really watch a lot of TV but over the last couple of weeks I’ve just started watching NCIS and I really enjoy it (I have only seen about three episodes of it though).  If my TV broke I wouldn’t replace it.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Not hate.  But one or two people have done things which have changed our relationships in a slightly negative manner.

26. What was the best book you read?

Tough one.  At the moment I’m reading “It’s My Party And I’ll Knit If I Want To” by Sharon Aris and it’s fantastic.  I’m tempted to list that as my favourite book but as I haven’t finished it yet (that’s this afternoon) I will give it an honourable mention instead.  

Best fiction book would be A Thread of Grace by Mary Doria Russell.

But overall best book would have to go to The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler.  Both the book and the show are extremely powerful and they really hit me, spoke to me in ways I didn’t expect.

Actually all three of those books are ones which make you think and feel – I’ve been wanting more than mindlessness and chick lit this year.  Although I have and still do enjoy mindless escapism every now and then.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

This year it seems to be all about the musicals for me.

28. What did you want and get?

A laptop (well, I got a netbook but as soon as I knew about them that was what I wanted instead).

30. What was your favourite film of this year?

27 Dresses

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I celebrated my birthday with lunch out with a friend and her son and then dinner at my parents house (roast chicken, sausages and all the trimmings) one day and then a trip to flashdance with my mum the next day.  But my actual birthday is tomorrow and I’ll be 27.  I am ambivalent about my birthday this year.  I really enjoyed both things and the gifts I received but the birthdayness I am ambivalent about.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

I really can’t think of anything.  There are things I would like and things I would rather had not happened but life as such has been pretty good and if I’d had those things or they hadn’t happened it wouldn’t have been what it was.  And it’s good.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

Bit of a scruff, living in trackies mostly with skirts in the summer.  And all new short somewhat spikey hair once September arrived and I cut all of my hair off!

34. What kept you sane?

Knitting. Reading. My friends. Playing silly mindless games online (thank you king.com!)

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

John Barrowman? Or Gordon Ramsay like I said last year.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

I refuse to say right to life again because I always list it here it seems.  But it matters, damn it.  So I will say the benefits system and changes that have been made to it.

37. Who did you miss?

Different people at different times.  For a long time I’ve missed the “Emma” I used to be.  But lately it seems I’m coming back to me.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I don’t like this question.  But I’ve met some great new people, a few thru the RCV swimming group (I’m glad I left but glad I stayed as long I did to meet these people) and several through the creative writing class and from other places too.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:

That I need to stop wallowing, take care of myself and to be the one to make things happen for me

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

I know I’ve used both of these lyrics on this survey in previous years BUT

You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of
reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

~Anyway, Martina McBride

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes 
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred moments so dear 
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes 
How do you measure – measure a year?In daylights, in sunsets 
In  midnight cups of coffee 
In inches, in miles 
In laughter and strife

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes 
How do you measure a year in the life?

(Seasons of Love, Rent the Musical)

>Because it made me smile…

>God and the angel Gabriel were at the water cooler one day. After chit-chatting about spreadsheets, schedules and last night’s episode of ER, God said: ‘I just created a 24-hour period of alternating light and darkness.’ Gabriel replied, ‘Wow – what are you going to do now?’ God retorted, ‘I think I’ll call it a day.’

>Relaxing, Recuperating and Odd Bits

>I’ve had some viral buggy thing going on pretty much since last Tuesday.  Not helped by ill and panicking a bit-ness on Tuesday and I’m still ill and I have a new ish carer I’m not sure of stressing on Friday.

But I seem to be pretty much better today (although lets not say that too loudly).  And I had a carer I’ve known for years but not seen in a long time today.  She’s only ever been a cover carer for me.  Which was nice because I know her and I’m totally comfortable with her meaning there I knew there should be no drama.  And there wasn’t, something I’d been very worried about happening last Friday as I was ill.  

My carer to do list is cleared and I was able to ask her about an issue I needed clarifying too.  So that’s something which was worrying me resolved.  I really feel the need to write more about carers in general, having carers, the process of needing and use care etc but that will be a post Christmas job.  Probably even a January one.

Other than that I’ve been taking it easy, reading stuff online, knitting and watching stuff I downloaded from the ‘net.  My sister came over for a bit too and we got our eyebrows waxed.  I’m covered in fluff from knitting.

And now I’m soon to be headed for bed, using this week for hibernating and recuperating.  I’ve needed a break for a long time.  

My only real plans for tomorrow – get all the washing done, finish reading my book and do lots of knitting.  I’ll watch DVD’s or something whilst knitting.  Unless Top Gear is on Dave.  That’s classic knitting watching and I’ve not done that in ages.  I must go check the tv listings before bed.

>It’s the small things

>I was reminded earlier today how much of a difference who does something can make.

That’s definitely very true when it comes to carers and the like but what  actually made me think of it was the contractors from my housing who do all the repairs.

About six weeks ago they sent someone out to unblock the drain for my shower.  it was taking forever to drain and as it’s a wheel in shower that wasn’t great (although I don’t wheel in I have a shower seat and leave my chair a bit away from it, walking a few steps to get to it).  

The drain cover was screwed into place and I couldn’t do it.  Which is a bit annoying because I could see no reason why it needed to be screwed in, it’s completely flush with the floor etc etc.  And if it wasn’t screwed in I could reach down and pull it out myself.  But balancing to unscrew it would never happen.  So about six weeks ago they sent a guy to clear it and I asked if he could leave the screws out so I would be able to do it myself.

No, nothing doing.  It wouldn’t be safe.

Serious problems with my shower again today – ended up with standing water all over the bathroom and into the hall – and a phone call to my house led to a promise of someone being with me “by the end of the afternoon” to sort it (this was 11 ish).  

And a knock on the door an hour later.

My shower works properly again now.  And without being asked the guy said he’d leave the screws out to make it easier for me to clear it myself in future as a short term measure.  Long term they are probably going to replace the drain cover because the guy thinks they fitted the wrong sort which is why it keeps blocking.

Proactive and in more ways than one.  I like that.

I know it probably doesn’t make sense to a lot of people but that is going to make a huge difference to me.  Because it’s one more thing that I could do that (for now at least) the small niggles which make it impossible have been removed from.

And it’s one more thing I don’t have to ask my dad or my carers or my housing to do for me.

>Got more Rabbit than Sainsburys…


Was just surfing old old old blog entries to find my end of year meme that I always do.  And I was reminded of this song:

Chaz n Dave – Rabbit

rabbit x 20

you got a beautiful chin,
you got beautiful skin,
you got a beautiful face,
you got taste,
you got beautiful eyes,
you got beautiful thighs,
you got a lot whout a doubt,
but I think bout blowin you out,

coz you wont stop talkin,
why dont you give it a rest?,
you got more rabbit than sainsburys,
it’s time you got it off your chest,
now you is just the kinda girl to break my heart in two,
I knew right off when I first clapped my eyes on you,
but how was I to know you’d bend my earholes too?,
with your incessant talking,
your becoming a pest,

rabbit x 20

now your a wonderful girl,
you got a wonderful smell,
you got wonderful arms,
you got charm,
you got wonderful hair,
we make a wonderful pair,
now I dont mind avin a chat,
but you have to keep givin it that,

no, you wont stop talkin,
why dont you give it a rest?,
you got more rabbit than sainsburys,
its time you got it off your chest,

now you is just the kinda girl to break my heart in two,
i knew right off when I first clapped my eyes on you,
but how was I to know you’d bend my earholes too,
with your incessant talkin,
your becoming a pest,

rabbit x 8
yup yup rabbit yup yup yup rabbit rabbit bunny jabber yup rabbit bunny yup yup yup rabbit bunny jabber yup yup yup rabbit bunny jabber yup yup bunny jabber rabbit

My sister and I used to love this song about three years ago – and it still makes me laugh and smile now.  I heard that they might be coming here for “an audience with….” next year and I don’t want to go really.  But I would like to see this song done live because I’d imagine it’s hilarious in person.

>101 in 1001 v2.0

>Tomorrow will be day 1 of my new (second) 101 in 1001 project.   Day 1001 will be Monday September 12th 2011.  

The new list is now online and can be found either by click on the link at the top or by clicking here.

With the exception of item 101, the items are listed in the order I thought of them.  I haven’t been as farfetched with this list as opposed to the old one but I stil like it.  This list was harder to write too.  

And the two unspoken goals on this list are to blog more about the things as I do/complete/try them than I did this time round and to complete more things than I did this time round (51).  But again, I’m not going into this thinking completing anything less than that/all of them is a failure.  Just a dream/goal.

>101 in 1001- COMPLETE

>Today is day 1001 and the project is complete.

Over the course of the project I completed 51 of the 101 goals!  Which I am beyond pleased with.  

I know that a lot of people go into this determined to complete every goal.  And that would have been nice.  But I set myself goals that would stretch me, be fun, be impossible, form habits and be things I’ve always wanted to do.  I knew going in that realistically completing them all would not be something that happened.

The following is the list of the goals which were completed.  Several others I tried and failed.  Those I haven’t marked but may do with the next phase.

2. Learn not to take on so much, and to fulfil what I promise.

3 Be in bed before midnight every night for a week

4. Start tracking my finances rather than just keeping a vague idea

5. Clear out my wardrobe

11. Take every med and supplement I am supposed to daily for six weeks(completed 12.02.07)

13. Complete NaNoWriMo again

22. Go to Madrid

23. Take some time out by myself to replenish my soul

26. Join the gym

29. Go at least 72 hours without using a computer.

30. Finish unpacking from when I left uni

31. Revisit childhood memories – go to the races at Newbury

32. Sell unwanted stuff on ebay or give to charity

34. apply to be a reader-book reviewer for New Woman (done 22/03/06)

36. Dye my hair a sensible colour and keep it like that for four months.

37. See the Lion King musical

38. Go at least one day without saying anything negative about myself or anyone else.

42. Do something nice and unexpected for a stranger

44. Do something in public I’d normally be scared to do.

45. Sit outside and watch the sunrise

47. Read Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

49. Back up my computer at least every other week

51. Put aside my guilt

52. Start and finish a cross-stitch

54. Join a writers group

55. Get a tattoo

56. Write a magazine article and have it published (DN is a possibility)


57. Give £5 to a beggar or big issue seller I like the look of.

59. Visit a sealife centre

61. Do a creative writing course

62. Relearn touch typing with the right fingers on the right keys.

66. Take more photos

68. Complete my planned favourite writings project

70. Accept my failings and weaknesses

73. Make my website everything I want it to be and more.

76. Go to a concert

77. Get a massage

78. Complete the Race for Life

79. Attempt to knit a scarf

80. Finish reading all the books on my “to read” list

83. Walk in the rain with no particular place to go
84. Make a beaded bracelet

86. Visit Liverpool

88. Make Pizza from scratch (base as well)

89. Learn to accept a compliment graciously

90. Wear more glitter.

91. Accept certain inalienable truths

92. Treat myself to a bunch of flowers

95. Leave comments on the blogs of a few famous people I admire

96. Write three letters of complaint for poor service (3/3)

99. Flirt more.

101. On Day 1001, publish a new 101 Things in 1001 

The full and complete list has been moved and can now be found here.


>I’m making a load of changes to this website this weekend.  Hopefully you won’t notice much whilst I’m doing them but will when they are done.  But I’m starting off with a wordpress upgrade and you know how paranoid I am about those!

>Amongst all the drama I forgot to title this post!

>Soooo much drama today it’s unreal. And it’s left me with no energy.  So all in I’ve gone from really excited about some possibilities to kinda low.

The short version:

Fell out of my wheelchair, bruised my bum and bashed my shoulder.  Pretty sore as a result.  Situation normal.

Mentioned it in passing to my carer and whilst falls might be just one of those things to me she then spent the hour she was here trying to convince me to go see a doctor.   And when she realised I was having none of that switched to trying to convince me to let her get a doctor out to me.  Oh and she thinks she will need to let my care agency know I had a fall (even though she wasn’t here when I fell and it was literally about six hours before she came).

She then went to leave and discovered her bike had been stolen from right by my front door.  So she was here for ages longer sorting it out.  She apologised loads for that (I told her not to worry about it) and did ask if I minded.  And I don’t really mind that but falls are draining.  So was arguing with her and then that, it just topped things off in a way I didn’t need.

Basically, I got the caster on the front of my chair snarled in something (a button that came off of my coat or a pen were the only likely culprits) and it stopped moving but the momentum carried me (and my cushion/dycem mat) out onto the floor.  The chair was still upright like usual and all that.  And I was still sat down.  Just on the floor.

I usually tell everyone that I can get myself up when I fall and if you ever find me on the floor unable to do so that’s when it’s time to panic and start worrying about doctors and all.  My mum rang while my carer was still here (having heard from my Dad that I’d taken a spill).  I said to her that I was bruised but OK but that my carer was worried I should see a doctor.  Mum’s response was what I thought it would be “wouldn’t bother”.  I really don’t think my carer understood but I told her that if I saw a doctor everytime I fell or nearly fell I’d spend more time there than anywhere else.

I’d really hoped this year was going to be the year when I didn’t fall out of my chair.  So near… but yet so far!