I’ve made a couple of attempts over the last few days at writing a blog post about the nuances of accessibility. And I still might do that at some point but at the moment I can’t make my thoughts on the matter into a coherent post.
Part of the problem, is that I’m a 40 year old life long disabled person. I’ve spent my entire life making do, fighting for accessibility and being the first to do whatever. Admittedly I have seen huge improvements in accessibility in my lifetime but there is still much to do. And I’m tired of it.
I suppose (having taken a break in writing this to think about it) that post about nuances probably was a struggle because there’s a nuance I wasn’t including. The energy it takes to fight for accessibility, the choices I make to fight this one but let that one go (and how I choose). And the energy those around me take up when they get angry on my behalf without understanding, try to find solutions when I’ve already considered them and/or tell me that it’s not right, it should be accessible and I shouldn’t let my disability stop me.
I’m really fucking exhausted of all of it. Burnt out really. But there’s not many people I can tell that too.