>A Bordering on TMI Update Type Post

>Being that it’s over a week since I wrote a “proper” catch up type blog entry I thought I better see what I could do about that right now.  This entry contains items which fall under the category of TMI – you have been warned!

The goals I wrote about a few weeks ago are… OK but kinda stalled.  My TV license is renewed, I’ve e-mailed or called or spoken to on facebook chat most of my friends I wanted to catch up with but not all.  I have looked briefly into changing my ISP but need to do more for that really.  I haven’t even started my shawl I want to knit.  And the no coke and no chocolate thing went really well. /sarcasm. I gave it up Sunday afternoon and was back on it Tuesday lunch time.  Yeah.  Need to work on that one a bit harder!  Although I am pleased that the Monday was a terrible day and I was really upset about something that happened and I felt ill from the lack of my treats but I still stayed strong.  Working on my emotional therefore I eat link is probably more important.

I went to the doctors last Tuesday to get my prescription renewed.  It was actually only my fluoxetine that needed doing but she’s done both.  My baclofen dose is now written differently so I get more each time I get a script and I can take it up to four times a day instead of the twice I was taking it.  I need to read up on that a little because I’ve got a feeling it works on building up to get the full effect so taking an extra here and there on bad days may not be the best way to do things.  Anyway I’ve been taking three a day since then.

There was some discussion when I last went that I might have polycystic ovaries.  Which is a wonderful condition which little is known about I believe.  I am assuming she means PCOS but since then I’ve done some reading which suggests it’s possible to have the syndrome without the cysts or the cysts without the syndrome.  Basically I’ve been skipping periods and then having really long heavy ones and then getting another period really soon (too soon) after the last one and lather, rinse, repeat, basically.

For example I had a period mid October.  Didn’t get one again until 1st Jan which lasted until the 14th and then got it again on the 31st. That lasted my usual five days only which I was relieved about.  I must admit that I was beginning to get concerned that I could end up anaemic.  And yes, I do know that this is TMI for a lot of people but 1) I believe in sharing because it could help others (or me) and 2) I find it useful to have this noted down for my records.

Anyway she said the hormone levels I had done in August weren’t particularly worrying (she used a different phrasing but that’s what she meant) – I was concerned about their validity as I got a period two days after they were drawn but she didn’t seem concerned about that.  There was some discussion about ways that we could treat it (i.e. regulate my hormones) which would be difficult as I can’t take the pill – if you took a list of possible side effects and contraindications of the pill you could cross out contraindications and retitle it “reasons Emma can’t take the pill” I have that many of the contraindications.

The suggestion was Noreisterone for so many days between certain days in my cycle each month to make me bleed.  But in my situation she prefers a wait and see approach and to see if my losing any weight makes a difference in the situation as she thinks my weight is probably what’s caused the polycystic ovaries.  That makes sense to me as it treats the probable underlying cause as opposed to just the symptoms (screwy periods mostly).

So I’m to see the nurse again on Tuesday to chat about my weight progress (I set that up before I saw the dr) and then I’m going to be getting on with this with a vengeance again.  My Dr did comment that I look a lot better than the last time she saw me and also that I look slimmer too. She also commented that I’m sitting better in my wheelchair which is interesting. Plus on the same day my sister commented that my tummy looked smaller.  Progress!

I’ve played on my Wii everyday apart from one since I got it – I use it for exercise and I really think that’s got a lot to do with my current success.  I do wish that I had my scales back already though – so frustrated that they broke and I’ve not heard from them (returned for repair or replacement due to the warranty).  But it’s not been long enough really to chase it yet.

The games I have are Wii Sports, Wii Sports Resort, Just Dance and Samba de Amigo.  I play the Sports Resort and Just Dance the most really and Samba de Amigo is probably the one I play the least.  That’s hard. It kills my arms.  Fun though.

I’m going to be doing some accessibility and/or disability awareness type work with my housing association it seems.  In fact I met with my housing officer on Friday and we spent half an hour walking around the estate I live on so I could show her areas where access isn’t great.  I think the fact I nearly came out of my chair going down a slope at one point (a part I don’t go to usually) really highlighted the fact that a better ramp is needed there!  Plus she asked about things I hadn’t considered too.  There are two more things I’ve been asked if I’ll do (but not arranged) and a few more possibilities so that’s good.  I won’t go into how that came about because it’s not all resolved but I’ll just say that it seems like good things come to those who complain!

I think that’s probably about it for now

>Updatey Stuff

>I feel like I haven’t updated properly in ages. And I said I was going to do several updates over the last few days but didn’t. I’ve been planning to update about several different things in several different entries but will try and do the condensed version here. So here goes:

Healthy You Challenge
No idea how that’s going, my scales are broken. Thankfully they are under warranty so I should be able to get them fixed but it’s still a huge frustration as I’ve not had them long. Realistically I’ve not been doing great with that.
101 in 1001
I’ve been doing my second list of that for just over a year now and have done something like 14 of the goals. Plus I’m all but finished with another (read 100 books in a year). Unfortunately I have completely failed on three of them but overall I’m pleased with how it’s going. I know a lot of people take the time to review their list after a year or so and change some of the goals but really I don’t feel like I want too.
Possible New Years Resolutions
I’m thinking of not really setting any proper new years resolutions just to continue to work on my 101 in 1001 list. But also I am well aware that I need to make some big changes in my life to be healthier etc. In a strange way I am looking forward to those changes. Meds has to be one of the most important ones I think and I haven’t missed a dose this month. Very pleased with that. I bought myself a NOMAD box and that’s helping a lot.
My Birthday
I’m a Christmas Day baby but we always celebrate my birthday a few weeks early. I went to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang with one of my friends which was fantastic. My favourite song from the show was Teamwork which isn’t in the film and unfortunately it seems that the soundtrack to the show isn’t available to buy. Usually my mum and I go to see whatever the Christmas show at the New Theatre is for my birthday but she was adament she didn’t want to go see Chitty so she paid for me and a friend to go. We had an evening of presents, playing a few games (of UNO mostly) and then watched Elf. It was fun. I had two books (have read one of them since I got it), a top which I chose, a membership to the arts centre, a game for my DS, the first series of Torchwood on DVD and a few little bits.
CAB and all that
Is going well but I’ve not been there very much lately, partly due to the bloody snow. in many ways that’s been good thing as I’ve been in desperate need of some proper rest over Christmas and I do feel so much better for that now! I’ve not left the house since I got home Monday lunchtime. I’ve been asked to take on the rota which is a much bigger job than i anticipated and was driving me a bit crazy but its done for January now. Plus I had a chat with one of the other advisers and an off hand comment she made had me going “oh!” and realising how to make it much easier (i hope!)
I’ll be spending Christmas with my parents and sister and my brother and his girlfriend will be popping in (but will spend the day with her mum). I hope to come home at night to sleep and shower etc as that will make things much easier all round – plus it gives me a few minutes to myself and I find that I’m the sort of person who loves being with people especially my family but needs alone time to thrive. Given the weather however I will take a change of clothes etc just in case. New Years Eve I’ll be at a friends house.
That’s something I really need to get on with after the new year and make a big attempt at. I told my mum that 28 is going to be a good year for me and I’m going to make a big go at becoming a writer and lose some weight too. I don’t know if the creative writing course is going to run again in January or not but am leaning towards not doing it even if it does run. I suspect it won’t anyway. But I’m planning to try and have one day a week which is my writing day and maybe take my netbook to a coffee shop or the library and do some writing that day. I do better when I’m not at home for writing it seems. Once I’ve gotten started I can keep going at home but it’s the starting that stops me if you know what I mean!
Merry Christmas Everyone!!

>Ugh, annoyed

>In the past two days I have not met any of my three daily goals. Ugh.

The goals are
daily meds
10 minutes of exercise
2L of water
And in fact, I have had nothing to drink today but coke and a tiny amount of bitter lemon first thing.
I’m gonna go have a glass of water and my meds in a min.
Basically some of you will know that a couple of somethings I can’t blog about happened and got me very down. And then I get annoyed with myself for still being upset because the other people involved will have moved on and really it’s not my problem. And it’s just generally a vicious circle.
Plus I’m due my period and I get vicious, vicious serious PMS which is totally what this is. It’s actually my worst depression symptom. Knowing this for what it is and that it should be better tomorrow or Saturday does help. But it also doesn’t.
I’ve been in quite a good routine whereby I drink water as soon as I get up and right before bed (as well as at other times in the day) and my meds are by the sink so I grab them at bedtime. But yesterday I ran late and didn’t drink anything before I left the house. Then I found a bottle of bitter lemon I’d forgotten about and that was that.
And so I completely forgot about my meds until I was ready for bed, half asleep and just wearing my knickers. And my kitchen has no blinds and I know this is pathetic and ridiculous but putting clothes on (it looks out onto a public footpath) was too much effort.
My baclofen prescription is being changed to tablets soon and when that happens I’m going to put a blister pack by the sink and one on my desk so I don’t have that excuse any more. Maybe in the bathroom as well. The reminder is going back on my phone too.
Today was just a case of it had gone wrong already so why not just let it keep going.
Exercise is the one I’m struggling with the most out of all three, meds and water were ones I was finding were getting much easier.
Tomorrow however is a brand new day and I am going to meet all of those goals.
I’m also going to clear off my desk, do several loads of washing (I need clean clothes, towels, tea towels, bedding etc desperately) and read a book.
Determined Emma is back.
And everyone who wants to bring me down whether deliberately or accidentally can go fuck themselves, basically.

>It’s Tuesday

>And on Tuesday’s I update this blog for the Healthy You Challenge. I’ve been putting this off all day in the hope of finding a better mood in which to do it but I guess it isn’t going to happen.

I am having one of those days where being disabled is hard. I don’t have them often (thankfully) but they do happen sometimes. I could do without them if I’m honest. The short version is I had a go at doing something I don’t usually on Sunday and struggled but managed… and put my back out in the process. There’s also been a couple of other niggly issues. Nothing major just all at once…
And after a great week with drinking water each day (and loads of it), making healthier choices and getting some exercise. My inability to stand properly on the scales (due to being unable to stand unsupporting) kicked in and I have no visible signs of progress other than knowing I did well and the vague idea that in a few weeks I’ll be seeing it as I can almost see it now,
Good things:
Cutting down on snacking
Really upping my water intake
Drinking less Coke as a result.
Three days when I didn’t eat chocolate at all.
Putting aside a chocolate muffin because it didn’t taste as nice as usual (chewy, yuck).
I’ve gotten exercise.
No missed meds
Baclofen has kicked in and I am transferring easier with less arm involvement
I’m on a lower dose than is considered therapeutic (was slowly upping it as my GP ordered but I don’t think I will any more).
Have paid off a chunk of my overdraft